Love That Don’t Feel Right

Sometimes I sit and wonder why did I go through some of the things that I did. I often challenge the notion that true love or happiness will find me someday. I think it is in part due to the traumatic past pain and the destructive wake that was left behind. I think it’s also due to the fact that I’m never the guy that gets appreciated in the moment. I’m not the guy who is loved in the midst or the guy that people take time to enjoy the view when we’re together. I seem to be the guy that shows what giving oneself means, only to have it be taken for granted or underappreciated. Then after time and failed relationships, people come back and reveal just how good I was, or just how much I was truly different.

These revelations, while fine on the surface, really tear away at me. It does so because I do want to be appreciated while engaged in the relationship. I want to be wanted and partner validated by the guy who has my affection. It’s not that I struggle to get people to want to be with me, but they don’t seem to have that desire for me that is shown for them. Better yet, they talk the game but the actions fail miserably. When you experience this enough, it makes you question whether or not you are doing something wrong. Maybe your energy isn’t right. Maybe your giving off a lack of confidence in self or somehow you just aren’t attracting that which you thought you were. It makes you feel a little insecure to feel the emptiness that should be filled by the one that you love.

I admit that I’ve been split and torn a lot lately. Some days I think that I’m in the most satisfying, happy and loving relationship. Then, some days I feel as though I’m really just here as a placeholder. Like I’m the stop gap to whatever is actually about to come next. It feels like I’m really just being used for knowledge and time, not really getting the full energy that I should be receiving. Not getting the full love that should be felt. Far too often I hear words spoken and at first they rang with this breath of freshness and believability, now they are starting to ring hollow and muted. Almost as if said on program and repeated lifelessly as a means to pacify my concerns or deflect from the obvious stress or lack of excitement for this relationship.

It just feels so wrong. It doesn’t feel like it’s a utopian love that is embracing the challenges and the journey head on. It feels like this love is being weighed down, battered already by outside forces that truly have nothing to do with the happiness or success of this relationship, but maybe a little unexpected blowback or unpreparedness for responses has caused things to become more tense or unsettled than imagined. Maybe the hardened exterior and polished tough words aren’t really the story at all. Maybe the reality is that inside the soul and the mind and spirit aren’t all connected on one accord. Maybe this journey is too much and the effects are starting to show. Love shouldn’t feel or be this way.

Love shouldn’t feel forced or weak, not at this stage and to me at any point. If it’s real love it might take a beating, it might become strained, it might wain a little, but that’s when the reserves kick in. That’s when the mind and most importantly, the heart, churns and reminds you of why you chose this person and this journey in the first place. I tend to think that there are many little battles fought within a relationship, amongst both the couple as a whole and the individuals themselves. It is how these battles are fought and decided that determine what direction the relationship goes and its ultimate succession or failure. I think that ignoring the physical aspect of any meaningful relationship is dangerous and is a source of weakness.

I don’t think that you have to be sexually intimate every day or all the time, but I do believe that a healthy and satisfying sex life within a relationship, coupled with a healthy joint spirit and a combined hearty love for one another builds the foundations solid and strong, so that when the inevitable challenges and obstacles arise, you have enough in the tank to withstand them, defeat and overcome them and then take the time to refill the tank. To me, when any of those elements are missing or aren’t firing on all cylinders, you are already at a disadvantage and usually likely to experience a harder time recovering, if you recover because the base isn’t firm. The foundation has cracks and the obstacles only damage that unsettled ground further.

When the love feels wrong, you have to ask yourself why. You have to be willing to look yourself in the face and ask the tough question of is it you and if so what can you do. But, you also have to have the metal strength to realize it may be your partner and you have to approach them with respect and due caution, but you must be just as blunt and direct with them as you would be with yourself. Otherwise you have no true bond or friendship, let alone a healthy relationship. Once those answers are given, you must then seek the solutions that will allow for this to resolved in a manner that both of you want the situation to go. Be it fixing the issues or dissolving the relationship. Either way, one thing you should never do is allow it to fester or boil over. When love doesn’t feel right, you better make it right or walk away.

Just Say Yes

Eventually most of us want that special day. The day that we ask that special person to marry us. The time we get to then plan the perfect day and the perfect celebration of that love. Time comes when you want to have that one that just makes you want to forget all the others and say yes just me and you. The question I have is why is it so nerve-wrecking to ask someone to marry you? Why does it seem to need to take days and months of the sense running through your head over and over before you muster up the guts to get the ring, or whatever symbol you choose, and get on your knee and pop that question? The second question I have is, why the hell does it take the other person so damn long to just say yes? LOL

I mean listen I know that this is a special moment and everybody wants to soak in the vibes and love and atmosphere. I get it that for most, it’s a true surprise and they really aren’t prepared to be put on the spot. Whether it be in front of no one, or in front of strangers or in front of family or friends. So maybe, it really is just a big ass mental block that comes into their mind once they see the situation unfolding before their eyes. But goodness some people drag that thing out like it’s a damn sitcom and they tryna get ratings out the deal. LOL

Now, to be fair I have been on the giving end of these proposals, so I’ve only had to do the hard work of buying the right ring, finding the right moment, making sure to keep it a secret until it’s time and most of all, getting on a knee and asking someone to be my spouse, in front of people. Suffice to say I guess I should shut the hell up because in each past instance, it took me months to really get the nerve and confidence to ask the question with the almost assured assurance that the answer would be yes, but in my defense, that’s the hardest part and requires the most planning so it should take time. Once that shit is done, don’t drag it out for another endless of amount of time, trying to cry, but not too hard, being legit surprised but not to the point of losing all sense of control. LOL

Can we just really have the beautiful moment. Take a little bit to soak in the specialness and uniqueness of the situation. Allow your emotions and feelings to overpower you and let the tears of happiness and joy flow. But then after all that happens within say.. 15 seconds, please say yes. Nod your head if you can’t talk or stick out your hand if you can’t move your head. But please just affirm your acceptance of the proposal so the person can get off their knee, the situation can switch from being awkward to celebratory and the planning for the next biggest day of life can begin.

I know this is meant to be funny and make a little light of a very serious situation. But in all fairness, there is nothing like being able to look someone you love in the face and ask them to take the ultimate step with you and take the step towards getting married. It’s a beautiful thing and something that should be cherished. A little secret, I have a plan to do just that later this year. I have a date in mind and a place. I have the ring I want to get and the setting already planed out. I just need Corona to cooperate or else the place will have to shift, but the plan will still move full steam ahead. Next year I plan to write a blog detailing all the details of the proposal and the plans for, if not the wedding itself. Stay tuned.

A Love Letter to my Soulmate

It’s hard to imagine after being hurt, destroyed, betrayed and left for nothing, that the heart can be so resilient and still beat and bleed for love. It’s just as unthinkable that one can go through that fire and still want to deal with the challenges and effort that comes with finding real love again. Sometimes love comes when you aren’t consciously looking for it. It will sneak up on you, grab you by the face and wrap itself around you with a armor that can be impenetrable. I am here to tell you that that feeling is a feeling that can’t be duplicated or simulated. It’s something that really only one person can bring you and once you feel it, you will never want to let it go.

Being in love with someone is like a drug. It can be so addicting and engulfing. It has the power to change you, sometimes for the good and sometimes for bad, it has the power to shape your thoughts and change your beliefs. Real, unconditional love makes you feel like you’re invincible, knowing full well that you will never be so. It takes a very special individual to deliver that type of love to someone that has been burned and heartbroken more than once. It takes someone who is willing to see past the hardened exterior to see the sweet and gentle softness that lies within you. That warmth and special feeling that you get when you’re with that person is something you never want to be without, no matter how much you know that there will be times in a day or week that you can’t have that feeling physically. I’m here to tell you though, if it’s real and strong the feeling never leaves you, even when you’re apart.

Generalization done, lets make this more personal. What you have done since coming into my life has been noting short of beautiful. Despite the fact we’re more than 10 years apart in age, your love is pure and sweet. It has a warmth and authenticity that no one can challenge. It continues to grow stronger by the day, with every passing situation that we conquer. I can only imagine how you feel, falling in-love and gaining the love of your life, while also distancing yourself from familiarity because of it. It’s hard to live in this gay life with love, because someone is always willing and seemingly ready to judge you and your relationship, without any knowledge of just how deep the connection really is.

To say that this was expected would be a lie. I knew from the moment I saw you that I wanted you, but I didn’t truly believe it would come true the way that it has. I didn’t think that your love would be so magnetic and strong like it is. You smile and it makes me feel good. You laugh and it makes me happy. You show me just how much being in love with someone can truly make an impact on the every day feelings of life. With you things feel more at peace. I feel like even though there are stresses, they will be overcome with our love and dedication to each other and our goals together. I can see eternity with you. I see the lights diming and your face the last I see before my final breath takes me away from here. I see the day I put that ring on your finger and the joy that it will bring. I see the moment that you put the ring on mines and the smiles never end. I see the day we walk down the aisle and stare into each others soul, professing our love and commitment to each other, our family and God before those we love.

All these things I see coming to pass, not that I say it lightly or without great thought, but as was said a few weeks ago, I can’t see my life without you by my side. Every day, every moment, walking together facing the unknown together. Good days and bad days, great conversations and arguments, love making and couch sleeping. Never walking away or wanting to give up, because the love that fills my heart for you, is a love that I didn’t think that I could muster anymore. I worry if I see you down, I get concerned if I know something has happened with you. I take your pain and grief on as my own, not because you’re not strong enough but because I want to be your shield and your sword. There to protect you when I can and fight with you when necessary. Building a bond so special and deep that no one can break.

It is truly a joy and a privilege to be sharing this journey in love together with you. It gives me peace and happiness to know that the future is so bright and promising. You asked the first time I said I love you to you do I love you forever? I told you yes, forever. I said it that day and every day since it’s been more engrained with each passing day. I love you baby, always and forever. You are my forever, you are my love. This I write to you today, A love letter to my soulmate.

Love Is…

Back again with the next installment in this series. I previously gave you three different things that love is. It is beautiful, complicated and disappointing. Today, I choose to say that love is challenging. A close synonym to complicated but not exactly. Lets explore why I said that love is a challenge. I think that love is challenging because it requires you to take each day separately from the day before. You know people are creatures of habit. We like to get in our own routines with things and so when you’re dealing with love, there isn’t a pattern or routine that you can get comfortable with because the person that you love may not allow for that to happen. Meaning, their mood, demeanor, characteristics they show from day to day may cause you to be off balance until you learn better why they behave they way they do.

That whole statement I just made could be enough to close this damn blog and have people think about what I said and comment. But I will break it down a little further. You know when you profess your love for someone, or you find yourself saying that you are in-love with someone, you are accepting that your love will be tested regularly. You are saying that everything you know about that person allowed you to let them into your heart. Your accepting that tomorrow you could very well sit and think what the fuck was I thinking. LOL, I know it doesn’t make sense to some, but if you are a person who deals with someone who has temperament changes, you know where I’m coming from. It can be very uncomfortable when you are dealing with someone who makes you smile, makes you feel good, and at the same time can frustrate the hell out of you.

There are normally so many other factors that go into that of course. Do the two of you live together? How long have you guys known each other? What is each of your backgrounds? Are you both open, talkative people or is one more introverted and one more extroverted? Are you both experienced in the dating world, if your gay, in the gay world? Is there a significant age gap, that creates different mental aptitudes? Do you have the same basic common interests? Do you have a similar thought process about sex? Is there stability on both parts? Just that quickly, I popped nine different questions that play into the dynamic of love and being in-love. That is one is biggest reasons I say that love is challenging. Navigating all these different obstacles daily, or weekly or monthly in order to know that your love is as deep and real as you claim it to be. Understanding what it means to have challenges in your relationship means that you will be able to have strong bases if you are able to honestly and truthfully address these obstacles. I want y’all to think about that and to also be honest with yourself. Have you felt that way about your wife or husband? Your boyfriend or girlfriend?

If you haven’t that’s great, maybe that means you have the perfect one or you answered all your questions and things are routine for you. If not, then it means you are normal and you have the same set of circumstances as many other people: the love you feel is challenged by the things you continue to learn about your partner. Take some time and think about this topic. Let me know how you feel and what you feel. Open dialog lets discuss.

Love is….

Probably one of the most difficult blanks to fill in because this topic is so varied and can be very broad or as specific as one wishes to make it. For this post I think I will attack it from three different angles. One, love is beautiful. Two, love is complicated. Three, love is disappointing. While there are definitely more words and sentences you could use for this example, I am choosing to use these three as I think they are probably the most common and the most open to discuss. Maybe after reading this you will have some thoughts of your own. So lets dive in.

One.. Love is beautiful. Make no mistake about it, there is nothing greater, in my opinion, than being in-love with someone who is in-love with you. It is one of the most beautiful things that you can have. Someone whose heart is beating just as strongly for you as yours is for them. Someone who thinks of you like you think of them. Someone who looks at you with the softness and passion that you look at them. It defies a lot of the negatives that can exist in the world and it can make even the most challenging of days seem tolerable. The beauty of love can make anything solvable because you know that someone is giving you what you desire. Companionship, love, intimacy and all the things in-between. Love like that is intoxicating, it can make you feel like you’re high without ever touching a blunt to your lips or a glass to your mouth. It makes you have butterflies sometimes when you see that special someone and it can make you feel real good about yourself. This kind of love is transcending, it allows for you to get past most any challenge set in front of you. It can take you to a place where nothing matters to you but you and the bond that you have built with that individual. Tell me if you have ever experienced a love like this.

Second, love is complicated. When you have the beautiful parts of love, sometimes you also have the challenges and the stresses of love. It can be and usually is a process to love someone. It’s not something that typically comes right away and even if you are in-love with someone, it’s likely that you’ve had some patches along the way to test and strengthen that love. It also has helped to build and grow you together with that someone. Sometimes it takes the challenges and the not so fun things for the love to truly grow and expand. Usually what’s happening is both people are staking their ground, drawing their boundaries, expressing their displeasures, as a means to grow together and figure out what are the triggers and displeasures of one another. It doesn’t mean that it’s anything bad happening, but it means that there is work to be done. And with all things, a relationship shouldn’t feel like a job or work, but for it to be the best that it can, it takes effort from both people to be as successful as possible. Learning to understand the difference between work and effort is key in having a relationship with that beautiful love. Also, sometimes a person may get weird or act out of character, it’s important to understand the root of that or at least have a full understanding of what to expect from someone in that situation.

The more in-depth and complex an issue is, the more complicated it can make the love that you share with someone. Because these complex situations require delicate and decisive actions in order to resolve them and grow from them. The worst thing that you can do when confronted with a situation like this is be timid or unsure. You also need to exercise a degree of patience. That is one thing that complicates love. Patience is something most people don’t have or are very reluctant to give because it requires them to give your time and yourself to the process of growing in love with someone. And time is one thing that we can never rebuild, grow or get back again. Once the clock changes from minute to minute, hour to hour it is lost forever, never to be repeated. It is for that reason that I believe many people are now hesitant to invest the time and energy necessary for a successful and beautiful love, because they fear their time being wasted and their energy being used for nothing. If you agree or disagree with this particular premise let me know.

Third, love is disappointing. Perhaps the most controversial and opinionated part of the this post. Love can be definitely one of the most disappointing things that happens in your life. It can break your heart. It can destroy your life, leave you fucked up, to pick up your own pieces, figure out what went wrong and try to figure out how to put yourself back together again without being too cold or bitter or black hearted about the situation. When you experience one or multiple of these disappointments, they tend to mark you. Leaving you trapped mentally in time to when the scar happened. Forcing you at some point to deal with the pain and damage. Otherwise, you will subject yourself to endless repetition with different people, until you address the situation that caused you to get stuck on pause. When you love someone with all of you and get your heart broken it can and usually will, change you forever. You aren’t the same because a piece of you is lost with that heartache, but it also gives you an opportunity to learn, rebuild yourself and become a better version of you. it can also create the space for a lot of bitterness or hardness towards people.

Love is also disappointing because you may not get the same amount of love back that you put out. Nothing is more hurtful that you showing and giving all your love to someone you think loves you, only for them to return your love half hearted or some percentage less than the 100 that you’re giving. That usually indicates to some that you aren’t being fairly treated in that relationship and you may need to get out for your own good, which is painful in that regard as well. Or maybe you’re loving someone one way and they don’t share that same love for you. It too can have an effect on you. No one will know how that will play out until or unless you come across that situation. While there are so many more situations that fit into this category, I think for now this is where I will leave you. Give me your feedback and I will pick this series back up down the line.

Fear In Redemption

Yeah, I know the title sounds like an oxymoron right? Why you have fear in being redeemed? I think it depends on what you’re getting redemption from or for. Sometimes when you’re the person that giving some redemption for something that they did to you it can be among the most scariest and uncomfortable things to do. Usually, it means in some form or fashion that you are giving that person a second change at something of value or important to you. If it’s a former love interest or lover, then what you’re doing is turning back on those emotions and feelings that you once carried. It also means that you’re willing to make yourself vulnerable again to that someone who has hurt you and caused you great disappointment and probably pain. Why is it that when we allow that to occur we feel this feeling of uncertainty? The answer is simple and obvious but not always accepted.

The reality of the situation is once you allow someone to be forgiven and taken back, what you are doing is taking responsibility now for anything else that happens to you as a result of dealing with that individual again. It does stand to reason that for some it’s very unnerving because people don’t always like taking responsibility for their actions or the actions of others when you have the choice to choose not to allow someone back into your space, or to allow your emotions or your heart to be involved again. The other part of this is that once you reopen that box, you can’t necessarily control how strongly those emotions come out until you have a feel for exactly what it is you want from that person. Your also fear the unknown and honestly the known. Because this is someone that you have history with your mind will think about whatever it is that caused you to remove them from your life until you see that whatever it is has truly changed and you can allow yourself to feel as comfortable as you would like.

This doesn’t pertain to a certain group of people or race or gender of people. This situation is a universally experienced situation. It’s one that sometimes you have to sit back once you’ve made that decision and just wonder to yourself did you make the right decision? Is that something you see as being as productive and fruitful as you hope. Or is it a case of being tempted by that “forbidden” fruit once again? Is it a situation where you’re going to put yourself out there only to get burned again by that person. It is the most confounding and difficult thing to actually express to someone that you have just given that second chance to. Because the reality also is that if you’re going to agree with the decision to try again, you kind of have to remove the stain of the past. You can’t forget it because that would dumb and reckless, but you must be fair and allow that person the room and space to show you that they really aren’t that same individual that they once were.

If you find yourself in this position it can be so difficult. You want to allow that person in to truly reclaim the space that they once occupied and are trying to or are occupying again. But, the fact is part of you is scared, afraid to allow yourself to get close to them fully because you don’t want to be made to look foolish and stupid again. It does in some way hamper the comfort you have with that person in different ways, without you really showing that you still are cautious with them. Yes, it is normal to feel that way. It’s normal initially have a bit of hesitation, but why would you want to live like that towards someone that you truly care for? It makes you wonder if you made the right decision? Enough time has passed to where you could make this decision with full understanding and not being jaded by what happened prior. But the feelings are just so strong. The emotion you just want to let out and be felt unharnessed and unhinged. You want to open up and just allow the moment to overcome you and the interaction. But the truth is you pull back just a little, you become a little uncertain exactly to move because you really don’t know what the person is about to show you.

I guess in the end it does come down to a few key elements that are often times at the root of most relationships and circumstances surrounding the relationships: Control, comfort, trust and emotion. Are you okay with releasing that grip on the emotions and situations surrounding what you allow to happen; can you be comfortable knowing that the more you show yourself to that person they’re going to respond to you accordingly; do you trust them to walk down the path that y’all are heading down and; are you emotionally prepared for it happen again if it does, and conversely are you prepared for the payoff if what he says is true and you two get the fairytale that you’ve talked about from the beginning? It is my belief that if you can answer these questions positively and affirmatively then you will won’t carry the fear of redemption anymore, instead you will be welcoming the redeemed.

Talk back to me, let me know what you think.

Game of the Gays

Listen, I’m all for the chase and the theory that you dont wanna make things too easy for someone. Easy come easy go. I get all that shit, but got damn it I’m sick of the dumb ass games gay dudes like to play. It absolutely is the most disgusting and annoying thing because it plays on the desires of gays only to extract what they want and then once it’s gotten becomes a game catch me if you can.

Never did I think this shit would get this fuckin outlandish. Guys be claiming to want to go on dates and learn you and build bond before bending over, but they can’t even get thru that lie before they’ve moved to the next story to keep them from having to be responsible for their actions, words and decisions. And lets be clear, if you don’t want to deal with a person there ain’t nothing wrong with that, but damn bruh just tell the truth and don’t bullshit someone just so you can feel better.

I say this with great fervor and vigor, time and energy are things that are never recovered. No matter how much someone can apologize to you for not being upfront and legit. No matter how sincere they seem, though I would argue that it would be bullshit, you can still never get back that which was lost. Your time and effort and energy is priceless and needs to be kept for people who fit whatever it is you want. I’m just saying if you want to just fuck say that. If you looking to get some consistent ass, then say that. Enough of the fake shit saying you want something real but it breaks down to you just want to have a classy or nonwhorelike fuck.

When you continue to play games with people or use people for your own sexual satisfaction know that you should at least give them the real business so they know how to approach. The sad part is most people won’t give a damn if they abuse your psyche to get what they want because the empathy of us in the community of color that’s gay is really lacking. Funny, people would rather ignore the decency of respect for each other all in the name of a nut.

Disgusting and pathetic.. talk back to me

All Americans

I’ve written this sex short story. Lemme know what u think..

The All Americans
“Ooouu, please don’t stop. Don’t stop!! Yes baby, just like that. Damn you’re about to make me cream all over that dick daddy. I can’t take much more daddy. Please gimme all that nut you got.” That was what MikThe All Americans
“Ooouu, please don’t stop. Don’t stop!! Yes baby, just like that. Damn you’re about to make me cream all over that dick daddy. I can’t take much more daddy. Please gimme all that nut you got.” That was what Mike heard while he was balls deep in Aaron’s warm hole. “You ready for this nut? You want daddy to breed that ass? Tell daddy again you want this nutt inside you.” “Daddy, please give me that nutt deep in my guts!” “Aight yo I’m bout to nutt, Aaaahhhhh Shhiitttt!!!” And just like that the session had ended.
Mike was the All American Quarterback who had his team on the verge of contention for a national title. He was obviously the most popular man on campus and was the most sought after too. Aaron was a standout Wide Receiver. He too an All American in his own right. Definitely one of the most popular kids on campus as well. These two were living the College life at The University of California Los Angeles. Almost always perfect weather, a campus full of options and the ones with first choice of them all. Both Mike and Aaron were dating cheerleaders, but that real action came when they got together. Never ones to be sloppy or careless, they never let on to their delicious sexual encounters. They would always make sure to be seen with some of the prettiest girls on campus, their girlfriends, and if they feel a slip coming. Well, football became topic of conversation.
Mike had the prototypical Quarterback features. He was 6 ft 3 210 pounds, caramel complexion, with pretty skin, a gorgeous smile and a body sculpted right out of a Marvel comic. His chest was perfectly chiseled, both arms full of tats. A full defined eight pack and a v-cut that make anybody wanna lick it. His legs were stout, thick thighs and calves of rock solid muscle. What made him all the more attracting is he had the most charming personality. He could smile and sweet talk you out your draws if you weren’t careful. He was from Dallas, Texas and true to the lore that everything in Texas is bigger. He had a dick to match the poster boy image. He was ten inches long, slightly curved to left, thick with nicely trimmed pubic hair and nuts that hung low.
Aaron didn’t have the typical receiver height, as he stood 5 ft 10, but the rest of him was the dream a lot of girls on campus and some of the dudes too. Aaron weighed 185 pounds, had a real smooth body, rock hard six pack, beautiful smile, long blonde hair and the prettiest blue eyes you would want to see. He a smile that was inviting and a personality to match, but because he was a LA pretty boy, sometimes his attitude was shit and left people not on the football team with a bitter taste in their mouth for him. He had a pretty tan and that included his phat, little round ass and his solid 7 inch dick.
Mike and Aaron have known each other for three years. One year on the elite high school recruiting circuit and the past two years as teammates at UCLA. Both starting as Freshmen and instantly bonding, because as the top two stars on their recruiting class, and being QB1 and WR1, they needed to get if the team was going to achieve their goals of contending for the national title. For them, today was not different than any other day up until that hot ass sex scene they just finished.
Business as usual for these two meant 6am practice, breakfast at 8am. Hit the showers, class from 10am until 3pm. Afternoon team meetings, homework, study and then the night to do what they want with whomever they want. And usually that was chilling with their girlfriends or teammates. Well, with the team coming off an emotional and huge win over arch rival USC, today was different. Coach cancelled all practices and meetings for the day. Just wanting players to check in with the strength coach and their position coaches. Get any needed treatment from the medical staff and enjoy a hard earned and well deserved off day. To the guys that meant fuck off, skip class and make memories.
For Mike and Aaron, a chance to do what QB1 and WR1 do, get extra reps together on the practice field with the rest of the receiving unit to stay crisp. Only today it would be just the two of them and that always, normally led them to trouble after they played with temptation a year ago. When they first became teammates they didn’t really like each other. Mostly because Mike was the biggest thing coming out of Texas and his ego wasn’t the only thing getting blown up. He was destroying booty holes left and right, secretly thou. LOL. He knew that he couldn’t risk his secret getting out that he was bisexual. That would hurt him in recruiting and it was always his goal to star at the D1 level.
With that being his leading premise, he was careful to make sure the holes he smashed were those of fellow football and basketball players, usually on rival teams across the state. And once he hit the national recruiting circuit, that was putting a fat kid in a candy store. He was fucking dudes from East Coast to West Coast. Midwest to Down South. Leaving his imprint and having all them niggas screaming daddy with that big dick he was slanging. Mike knew he could whomever he wanted whenever he wanted, all he had to do was flash that smile, put on that charm and the rest was history.
After a small workout last year, similar to the one today, with just him and the receivers and running backs, Mike was just out the showers and another receiver, Andre, were at their lockers dressing, Mike dropped his towel and turned around and Andre saw what he was working wit, and made him smile, only he thought he was just smiling on the inside. Turns out he was staring and smiling at Mike on the outside too. And Mike saw him, smiled back and asked if he saw something he liked? Andre snapped to when he heard Mike talking, realized he was caught this time and shyly said yea, making his eyes go back to Mike’s now semi hard dick. Mike grinned grabbed his dick and turned around to continue putting on his clothes.
Andre was thinking at that point what would it be like to have all that meat down his throat. Better yet, how would it fill to have him stretch his tight hole open. Something he hadn’t felt since he got on campus four months ago. Andre knew he had to find a way to have his day with Mr. All American. He heard the word around campus from all the girls Mike fucked, that his stroke game was sumthin serious and he needed to see if the talk was legit. He also had heard the word, being from Texas and a year behind Mike, that he was Bi and liked to bust some holes open because he was friends with a few of the guys Mike dicked down back in high school. He just had to figure out how and when to make his move.
It was the next day after a full team practice and as usual, he and Mike were the last two in the locker room . This time Andre wasn’t going to let Mike leave without having that Texas meat plunged deep in his ass and down his throat. Just like the day before, as Mike was toweling off and starting to dress he turned around to face Andre and smiled at him first this time. He gave him props for running the right routes and continued to get dressed. Andre felt that was his queue and asked Mike for a favor. He said sure and Andre immediately dropped to his knees to engulf all that pretty, brown meat.
Making sure he could get as much in his mouth at one time, Andre took a deep breath, opened his mouth and deep throated the dick on the first slurp. Mike started to ask what was he doing, but instead said fuck it and threw his head back, moaning and thrusting his hips forward to face fuck Andre. For Andre it was like heaven for him. He was pleasing the school star, his home state big shot and the star of the football team. As he sucked away, he took time to smell Mike’s scent from his dick and balls. It had a fresh cocoa butter smell and the more he sucked, the more it throbbed, pulsated and grew in his mouth. Andre was 6 ft 1 195 pounds dark chocolate with a phat bubble ass and full, juicy lips. His body too, cut like a sculpture and a deep but soft voice to match. Outwardly he was the opposite of Mike. Reserved and kinda shy, but when it came to sex he could go toe to toe with him.
The more comfortable they both got with what was going on, the more Mike thrust his hips to get as much of his dick n Andre’s mouth as he could. Occasionally Andre would gag as the dick was getting too deep in his throat and he would come up for air. Then he would gently suck Mike’s big balls making Mike moan real heavy, grabbing Andre’s head, pushing it back on his dripping wett dick. After a while, Mike was ready to taste that chocolate ass, so he flipped Andre around, bent him over and went to work. He ate that ass like he was starving. He was just so perfect. Soft but firm, smooth and chocolate. His hole small and pretty. The first lick made Andre jump. He was soft, warm and sensual. The next ones made him moan and once Mike slid his tongue inside he was melted and moaning quite loudly.
This continued for a while. Mike wanted to make sure Andre felt relaxed and that he had gotten his ass super wett. Because Mike didn’t have any lube and he was ready to go balls deep. Andre knew what was coming and asked if Mike had a condom. He lied and said he didn’t to see if Andre would insist. Knowing the rep of his star Andre asked Mike to check to make sure. Mike fit a little mad and said more forcefully he didn’t have one. Not wanting to miss his chance to get that dick. Andre backed down and said ok, Mike smiled and shoved his dick in, just to make a point. Andre screamed and pushed Mike out of him. He asked him why he do that? Mike said to teach a lesson. Andre understood and bent back over. As Mike continued to dig in and plunge Andre’s now wett and open hole he felt that sensation start to rise. He knew that he wasn’t too far away from busting his huge nut.
Mike knew what was coming and based on his increase in tempo Andre started to sense what was coming too. He knew he submitted to Mike fuckin him raw but he didn’t want to be bred by him, because he was unsure if Mike was clean or not. Just as Mike was preparing to make those final deep pumps, Andre between browns said please pull out. Mike appeared to disregard what he heard, because he didn’t answer Andre. Instead he thrust harder and his dick stiffened. He groaned loudly and said “Nigga I’m bout to come.” That was followed by Mike’s big dick throbbing and then releasing. He held his dick deep inside Andre and let his nut empty into his open, wett hole.
Mike slid his glistening, wet dick out of Andre slapping his ass while pulling out. Smiling and still looking at him, Mike said that he would gladly find time to give Andre the dick again if he wanted to keep getting his hole stretched open. Andre stood up, turned around to face Mike and said with a wide grin “mmmm…maybe.” Turning back around to face his locker and get dressed all while laughing, smiling and loving the fact that he finally got that Texas dick he was secretly yearning for.
Both men finished dressing and exited the locker room. Making sure to be engaged in a conversation about the next opponent the team would face, as to not draw attention to himself, Mike was always cautious not to make anything look too suspect. This time his only problem was they weren’t the last two in the locker room as he had assumed. Even though all the showers were off, there was one teammate left besides the two of them. And more importantly than that, he had heard and seen the whole session. Aaron was both sad and excited all at the same time. He had suspected that his star QB was lowkey into guys and now he had his confirmation. He reveled in the fact that he could now try to score one with his teammate, but he was salty that he wasn’t the first teammate to be tamed by that Texas snake. Armed with what he now knows, Aaron started to plot how to use what he saw to get what he wants. He, unlike Mike, was not a DL Bisexual man. He was out and his girlfriend knew it, but he promised he would be faithful to her with both sexes. Although he knew that was promise he was going to break for Mike.
A few months passed and all was quiet regarding Mike, Andre and Aaron. The season had ended, preparation had begun for the next year and all the players were making sure to keep their grades strong, while having more of a social profile, since the end of the season. Mike was being Mike. Living it up, rocking with his girl, having fun at the frat parties, kicking it with teammates, studying and thinking about who he was gone drain his dick in next. He knew he could fuck Andre again, but he wanted someone new. Knowing that doesn’t want to risk drawing attention to himself, whomever he selected next he had to know for sure they wanted him, but would keep the shit a secret between the two of them
It was a Wednesday afternoon and like the days and weeks that preceded it, the football team had just finished their afternoon practice. All the players were showering, getting treatment, clowning around and discussing plans for after they were finished. Mike was busy planning who he was about to fuck next while washing his delicious, caramel body. Knowing that eyes were watching, he always took time to slowly wash his chest, v-cut and dick. He wanted to see if he could catch a staring eye or three. At his locker, sitting just listening to music now as he always does, Mike doesn’t realize the locker room has completely cleared, except for Aaron.
Aaron, knowing that it’s just Mike and him left, walked down to Mike and sat beside him. Getting his attention so he can take off his headphones. Aaron asked Mike if he was ok, seeing as how he was still in just his underwear and the rest of the team had already left. Mike said he was fine, had just got lost in his thoughts. Accepting his answer, he left Mike and went to finish grabbing his stuff to leave. That’s when Mike stood up and made his way to Aaron. Dick starting to get hard and bulge through his underwear. He asked him if he wanted to have fun. Aaron asked what does that and Mike smiled and told him, no questions just answer his question. Nervous, but excited as to where this may go. He said yes and the rest became history.
Mike took off the clothes Aaron had just finished putting on. He slowly started kissing on his neck, gently sliding his tongue on Aaron’s soft skin, making him have chills and moans come out his mouth. He didn’t know that Mike was gone be as aggressive and passionate at the same time. He pulled Mike’s head up to give him a kiss and Mike pulled back, pushing Aaron’s head down to lick his nipples and go down towards his long, thick, precum dripped dick. Not one for being too passionate Mike didn’t want to get too serious, he just wanted to get a feel for that smooth , White ass that he was smacking. Aaron followed the direction given, and happily tasted all of Mike’s body from chest down to his dick.
He saw that dick and almost gagged immediately. Aaron inhaled the smell of Mike’s scent while he bobbed on that dick. He wasn’t exactly sure the pace Mike wanted but he knew he had to be prepared to swallow all that dick. He tried to start off slowly, but Mike wasn’t having it. He grabbed Aaron’s head and pushed it down on his dick. Causing his gag reflex to trigger and push Mike back to catch his breath. After stopping for a second, Aaron went back at it and made Mike moan loudly as he began to throat fuck him with deep thrusts of his pelvis. It was about the time that Aaron’s jaws began to feel sore that Mike pulled his head off his dick and turned him around so he could see that pink booty hole. Aaron had just Naired himself so he knew that his hole was smooth and ready to be ate and fucked. Mike spread Aaron’s cheeks and softly licked his hole. Again, Aaron had chills and jumped a little because it felt so good and warm. Mike grabbed him by the waist spread his cakes again and plunged his thick tongue into Aaron’s waiting ass.
The feeling was so pleasurable. It made Aaron relax more and more Mike licked and sucked on his hole. He was moaning loudly and throwing his ass back, loving every minute of what he was feeling. Mike came up from that hole and was ready to beat it in. With Aaron’s ass already lubed from being ate and his dick brick hard, he put some spit on his dick and slid his fat dick head into Aaron’s tight hole. That pressure from Mike’s dick was so intense he screamed ooouuuu shit!! Mike told him keep yo ass still nigga and take this dick. You wanted it. Now take this dick like a pro nigga. Those words ringing in his ears and his desire to pleasure Mike fully, Aaron started throwing his ass back on Mike and the friction had both men groaning loud.
Mike had Aaron bent over the recliners blowing his back out. His nut flapping against Aaron’s ass as he kept getting balls deep. Pounding and stroking, mixing it up so Aaron’s now gushing, wett hole would keep creaming on his dick. Aaron was unable to keep throwing it back because Mike had sent his sensations into overdrive. His hole was so open and was becoming tender as Mike keeps pounding away with all that meat. The payoff was coming soon for both of them. Mike was feeling his heavy nuts tighten up and so he began to dick deeper into Aaron. Feeling that Mike was getting closer, Aaron used that to throw his ass back to create that extra friction and that put Mike over the top. He groaned, moaned and panted and then you heard, FUUUUCCCKKK. What came after was loads and loads and loads of nut. Flooding Aaron like super soaker.
Exhausted from being fucked senseless, Aaron collapsed in the recliner and couldn’t stop smiling. Those dreams he kept having after seeing Mike fuck had finally come true. It was everything he thought it would be and more. He didn’t know what type of stroke game he was gone get from Mike but he loved it all. He wouldn’t change this experience for nothing. But now he’s realizing that he can’t tell anyone about what just happened. Mike isn’t open like he is, so this had to kept between the two of them. It was the anticlimax to an otherwise amazing afternoon. Mike for his part was sitting there, spent but also feeling great. He always wanted that White ass he just flooded and he can check him off his list. And just like Andre, he told Aaron he would be glad to give him the dick again.
The two men showered, got cleaned up and headed out the locker room back to the rest of campus and to find their girlfriends. Mike and Aaron went for months meeting up here and there for quickies and having fun exploring different places they can fuck and not get caught. They did it just about anywhere they could a secluded space to feel the rush of possibly getting caught. It was a lot for them keep it hidden and it was starting to drain Aaron but it appeared Mike was having a good time. It’s true that he was, but he was starting to feel conflicted because he was enjoying dicking Aaron down so much, but he was also starting to develop feelings for him as they hung out. Now he was torn on whether to come out and pursue Aaron or stay on the low, keep his girl and fuck them both.
The end of summer came and football season was back in full swing. The team was undefeated after the first three weeks and headed towards a date with instate rival the Stanford Cardinals. Mike and Aaron were dominating through the first three games and off the field they were still having casual flings. Mike still wasn’t ready to let the world know that he was a bisexual man. And begrudgingly Aaron agreed and kept his All American’s secret safe. It seemed that nothing to really go wrong for these two. They had the world at their fingertips. They did the same thing that they always did during this week. Found fuck spots twice before game day and then go out to dominate their opponents. Game over Bruins win, Mike and crew keep the hype moving towards their hope to win a national title. He is also alive in the Heisman discussion so there are more cameras, more attention, which means less time for him to fuck Aaron.
It’s been three weeks and there’s been no sex between Aaron and Mike. The star is swamped with Heisman hype and game film study. Also Mike was getting more paranoid before they stopped having sex because he felt they had been doing it too much. Aaron was feeling a bit abandoned by his sexual lover and his best friend. Aaron was wondering what did he do wrong, or if it was a mistake to have been fucking Mike for all these months. Maybe his ass wasn’t good enough for him anymore. There was no way to know because they hadn’t talked and he doesn’t know what to do to try and get answers for himself. The uncertainty surrounding his status with his friend was starting to affect his play. He wasn’t as focused and his play was beginning to hurt the team on offense.
Now we sit here and its USC week. The bitter rival from Southern California was coming to their place for the biggest showdown of the season. Mike knew that he needed his ace wide out at the top of his game if they were going to best USC. That meant he needed to take time to talk to his friend. Tell him why he’s been distant and try to help him get his head on straight. He caught up to Aaron on Tuesday afternoon, before practice and his obligations. He apologized and told him that part of the reason he stayed away is because he needed to focus and he was becoming more uncertain of what he wants in regards to the two of them and their situation. It was weighing heavily on his mind and he decided that for the rest of the season they wont hook up anymore, but he wanted to have one last jaunt tonight.
Aaron sat listening to everything Mike had to say and he felt a sense of shame come over him. He felt like he got too caught up in fucking Mike to really realize that Mike wasn’t going to get into him the same way as he was into him. He heard Mike say that no sex until after the season. He also said that he was not going to come out for him. He was realizing that he was no more than friends with benefits that was holding a secret. Now he had to decide whether he wanted to have that last fuck for the year or if he just wanted to say fuck it and leave Mike alone all together until he decided what he wanted to do. Aaron knew getting that dick would relieve his stress. It would make him feel good, but it also be private and secret, not to be talked about at all on any level. Mike looked at him like he was a hyena in the wild stalking its prey. He was ready to pull put that caramel snake and plow his hole one more time.
Against his better judgement, but following with his ass, Aaron told Mike yes he could fuck him tonight. While Mike has a chess cat grin on his face told you all you would need to know about his plans and intentions, the disappointed look on Aaron’s face let you know exactly how he felt about having to have another discreet hookup. The rest of the passed quickly as usual for them both. And as the time came closer for them to do it, Aaron was having second thoughts about it. See he had quietly broke up with his girlfriend because he could no longer pretend him fucking her was satisfying him and he also wanted his conscious free to pursue Mike.
He thought about texting Mike to tell him that he had changed his mind and he no longer wanted to fuck tonight. Every time he pulled out his phone to send the message he kept having flashbacks to all the sex they’ve had and he didn’t want to miss out on getting his back blown out, having his ass creamy wett and having Mike’s big dick breed his pink hole. The allure of sensual sex was overpowering his desire to hold out in hopes Mike would give him what he really wanted. He chose to get ready for this last session and worry about the rest after it was all over.
He looked at the last video he recorded with Mike of them fucking to get himself even more horny and wet for tonight. He couldn’t take his off Mike’s long dick, his beautiful body and how he was stroking him inch by inch, deeper and deeper. As Aaron got in the shower he began to day dream about the video he just watched. Soaping his defined muscles from his chest down, down his stomach, to his hard seven inch dick, and around to his little plump ass, that was already wett. Fingering his hole slightly, Aaron began to moan and feel the juices inside him on his finger. He quickly put two fingers inside his hole to stretch his hole just a little.
Meanwhile, Mike was in his apartment clowning with teammates, playing video games when he looked at is phone and realized the time. He had to get ready so he could slang that pipe in Aaron and let him know how much he cared for him without breaking his vow to put himself just yet. Mike was planning to tell Aaron that he loved him and that once his collegiate career was done, next year and he declared early for the draft, that he was going to come out so they could pursue a relationship together. He felt great about his decision and even more so, he was excited because he was about to get his dick wett at Aaron’s expense again tonight. Mike visualized the last time he was balls deep in Aaron’s tanned hole. He was picturing Aaron on his back, legs spread open, him pounding away. His body glistening with little beads of sweat. Making Aaron take all his dick until neither could take anymore and he bust a huge loan in his hole. Thinking about this while washing got Mike’s dick to start jumping. He was ready.
Tonight was different for Mike so rather than find a random place for them to fuck they had a hotel room down the street from campus. This way they could take their time, they could talk and not be worried about going caught or interrupted. Mike could fuck all night and really get Aaron stuck on him. That way he hoped that would carry him the rest of the year and season without that huge meat pounding his ass, thumping against his walls. Fresh and fly Mike showed up in his black Nike sweat suit with the brand new retro 11s custom made matching the Bruins school colors. He smelled amazing and he was looking forward to fucking Aaron stupid all night.
First to arrive, Mike set the mood. He had the lights off, candles lit with the music playing too. He had taken his shirt off, so his sexy brown skin was showing and glowing. Perfect body with his blue and white Hollister underwear on, showing as his pants sagged off his round muscle ass. He wanted to tease Aaron as soon as he got there by being shirtless. His way of starting the fun, messing with his mind and beginning what was going to be a very long night. It was shortly after Mike took his shirt off that Aaron knocked at the room door, Mike hesitated for a minute then opened the door. Not expecting him to open the door shirtless, Aaron had an immediate bulge, big smile and little tingle from his hole as the site of Mike turned him on immediately. If Mike told him to get naked right now, Aaron would strip.
Now for his part, Aaron was no slouch. He was wearing some yellow skinny jeans, a white fitted polo and his own custom 11s as well. With just a little sang in his pants, you could tell he had on blue American Eagle underwear. He walked in, smelling good and gave Mike a big hug, holding him an extra second or two, smiling as he felt the muscles and body of his favorite guy touching his. They sat and began talking about how the rest of their day apart went. Laughing and enjoying the story each one told, the chemistry was on full display. You could easily see why both was attracted to the other.
Aaron said he had something he wanted to tell Mike and that it would be a bit a of a game changer for their situation. He eased Mike’s tension by saying it was nothing bad because he could see his demeanor change with that statement being made. So Aaron sat on the bed and Mike sat in the chair. Aaron looked at Mike and told him that a few weeks ago he broke up with his girlfriend. The look on Mike’s face let him know that he was very surprised. Aaron admitted that all the sex he was having with Mike made it impossible for him to be with her because he cheating. And more than that he had developed these strong feelings and didn’t want to let them go. He said that if that meant they could never have sex after tonight he understood because it wouldn’t be as easy for them to hide it.
Mike looked in disbelief at what his best friend and secret fuck buddy had told him. He didn’t really understand why Aaron felt the need to break things off with his girl so abruptly. Yea they’ve been fucking regularly for months now, but that didn’t mean he had to do that now. But he accepted what he had to say and told him that he still wants to resume fucking after the end of the season. He couldn’t allow himself to be distracted in the final couple months of the season with a title chase ongoing and his push towards winning the Heisman trophy. He also said that he wanted to tell Aaron something that would change their dynamic and eased his fears that it was nothing bad.
He looked Aaron in his face and explained that part of the reason for the distance was because he was wrestling with his feelings for him. He confessed that all the time together and the fucking and the friendship they already had made him feel different. It wasn’t jjust fucking for the sake of it. It was the secret hole pounding that gave him the thrill. He admitted that he loved Aaron and he was caught up with those feelings every time he ducked him down. Mike said that once his college career was finished and he had declared for the draft and subsequently been drafted, that he would come out and would attempt to have a relationship with Aaron. Mike felt great getting that off his chest and Aaron’s face was a mix of happiness, sadness and shoc. He was speechless.
Mike didn’t wait for a response. He took all his clothes off, revealing his 10 inch thick dick that was now fully erect. He walked over to Aaron who had taken his clothes off too and put his dick in his mouth. To Aaron it tasted better than before. Maybe the shine from Mike’s announcement had him over the moon, but he was enjoying every second. This time there wasn’t a long oral session, Mike lubed Aaron’s ass and then put some on his dick and slid all his meat up Aaron’s hole into his guts. He slow stroked that hole for seemed like forever. With every stroke Aaron moaned louder, his hole got even wetter and Mike’s balls slapped his ass over and over.
Three hours later, three nuts later they were still at it. This time Mike had Aaron riding his dick. Bouncing up and down, all way to the base. Full of dick Aaron groaned, grabbed Mike’s arms and begged for him to stop. Mike smiled kissed his hand and pounded away, getting that ass wett, gushy and creamy. He flipped Aaron over to his back, put his legs in the air and plowed back into his tender, stretched hole. The pounding and subsequent sounds of dick and ass juice filled the room. Mike was ready to let his last nutt out and Aaron was ready to take it. As if perfectly timed, Mike’s balls swelled, his dick stiffened even more and then an explosion happened. Loads of nutt shot into Aaron’s hole. Each warm burst being felt, he knew it was done and so was this session. Both men spent, they lay in the bed next to each other. Smiling, breathing heavy and content. Knowing that once they leave in the morning this is last memory of sex together for months. Aaron lay in Mike’s arms until they fall asleep and thinking to himself this could be his life, what an adventure it would be.
e heard while he was balls deep in Aaron’s warm hole. “You ready for this nut? You want daddy to breed that ass? Tell daddy again you want this nutt inside you.” “Daddy, please give me that nutt deep in my guts!” “Aight yo I’m bout to nutt, Aaaahhhhh Shhiitttt!!!” And just like that the session had ended.
Mike was the All American Quarterback who had his team on the verge of contention for a national title. He was obviously the most popular man on campus and was the most sought after too. Aaron was a standout Wide Receiver. He too an All American in his own right. Definitely one of the most popular kids on campus as well. These two were living the College life at The University of California Los Angeles. Almost always perfect weather, a campus full of options and the ones with first choice of them all. Both Mike and Aaron were dating cheerleaders, but that real action came when they got together. Never ones to be sloppy or careless, they never let on to their delicious sexual encounters. They would always make sure to be seen with some of the prettiest girls on campus, their girlfriends, and if they feel a slip coming. Well, football became topic of conversation.
Mike had the prototypical Quarterback features. He was 6 ft 3 210 pounds, caramel complexion, with pretty skin, a gorgeous smile and a body sculpted right out of a Marvel comic. His chest was perfectly chiseled, both arms full of tats. A full defined eight pack and a v-cut that make anybody wanna lick it. His legs were stout, thick thighs and calves of rock solid muscle. What made him all the more attracting is he had the most charming personality. He could smile and sweet talk you out your draws if you weren’t careful. He was from Dallas, Texas and true to the lore that everything in Texas is bigger. He had a dick to match the poster boy image. He was ten inches long, slightly curved to left, thick with nicely trimmed pubic hair and nuts that hung low.
Aaron didn’t have the typical receiver height, as he stood 5 ft 10, but the rest of him was the dream a lot of girls on campus and some of the dudes too. Aaron weighed 185 pounds, had a real smooth body, rock hard six pack, beautiful smile, long blonde hair and the prettiest blue eyes you would want to see. He a smile that was inviting and a personality to match, but because he was a LA pretty boy, sometimes his attitude was shit and left people not on the football team with a bitter taste in their mouth for him. He had a pretty tan and that included his phat, little round ass and his solid 7 inch dick.
Mike and Aaron have known each other for three years. One year on the elite high school recruiting circuit and the past two years as teammates at UCLA. Both starting as Freshmen and instantly bonding, because as the top two stars on their recruiting class, and being QB1 and WR1, they needed to get if the team was going to achieve their goals of contending for the national title. For them, today was not different than any other day up until that hot ass sex scene they just finished.
Business as usual for these two meant 6am practice, breakfast at 8am. Hit the showers, class from 10am until 3pm. Afternoon team meetings, homework, study and then the night to do what they want with whomever they want. And usually that was chilling with their girlfriends or teammates. Well, with the team coming off an emotional and huge win over arch rival USC, today was different. Coach cancelled all practices and meetings for the day. Just wanting players to check in with the strength coach and their position coaches. Get any needed treatment from the medical staff and enjoy a hard earned and well deserved off day. To the guys that meant fuck off, skip class and make memories.
For Mike and Aaron, a chance to do what QB1 and WR1 do, get extra reps together on the practice field with the rest of the receiving unit to stay crisp. Only today it would be just the two of them and that always, normally led them to trouble after they played with temptation a year ago. When they first became teammates they didn’t really like each other. Mostly because Mike was the biggest thing coming out of Texas and his ego wasn’t the only thing getting blown up. He was destroying booty holes left and right, secretly thou. LOL. He knew that he couldn’t risk his secret getting out that he was bisexual. That would hurt him in recruiting and it was always his goal to star at the D1 level.
With that being his leading premise, he was careful to make sure the holes he smashed were those of fellow football and basketball players, usually on rival teams across the state. And once he hit the national recruiting circuit, that was putting a fat kid in a candy store. He was fucking dudes from East Coast to West Coast. Midwest to Down South. Leaving his imprint and having all them niggas screaming daddy with that big dick he was slanging. Mike knew he could whomever he wanted whenever he wanted, all he had to do was flash that smile, put on that charm and the rest was history.
After a small workout last year, similar to the one today, with just him and the receivers and running backs, Mike was just out the showers and another receiver, Andre, were at their lockers dressing, Mike dropped his towel and turned around and Andre saw what he was working wit, and made him smile, only he thought he was just smiling on the inside. Turns out he was staring and smiling at Mike on the outside too. And Mike saw him, smiled back and asked if he saw something he liked? Andre snapped to when he heard Mike talking, realized he was caught this time and shyly said yea, making his eyes go back to Mike’s now semi hard dick. Mike grinned grabbed his dick and turned around to continue putting on his clothes.
Andre was thinking at that point what would it be like to have all that meat down his throat. Better yet, how would it fill to have him stretch his tight hole open. Something he hadn’t felt since he got on campus four months ago. Andre knew he had to find a way to have his day with Mr. All American. He heard the word around campus from all the girls Mike fucked, that his stroke game was sumthin serious and he needed to see if the talk was legit. He also had heard the word, being from Texas and a year behind Mike, that he was Bi and liked to bust some holes open because he was friends with a few of the guys Mike dicked down back in high school. He just had to figure out how and when to make his move.
It was the next day after a full team practice and as usual, he and Mike were the last two in the locker room . This time Andre wasn’t going to let Mike leave without having that Texas meat plunged deep in his ass and down his throat. Just like the day before, as Mike was toweling off and starting to dress he turned around to face Andre and smiled at him first this time. He gave him props for running the right routes and continued to get dressed. Andre felt that was his queue and asked Mike for a favor. He said sure and Andre immediately dropped to his knees to engulf all that pretty, brown meat.
Making sure he could get as much in his mouth at one time, Andre took a deep breath, opened his mouth and deep throated the dick on the first slurp. Mike started to ask what was he doing, but instead said fuck it and threw his head back, moaning and thrusting his hips forward to face fuck Andre. For Andre it was like heaven for him. He was pleasing the school star, his home state big shot and the star of the football team. As he sucked away, he took time to smell Mike’s scent from his dick and balls. It had a fresh cocoa butter smell and the more he sucked, the more it throbbed, pulsated and grew in his mouth. Andre was 6 ft 1 195 pounds dark chocolate with a phat bubble ass and full, juicy lips. His body too, cut like a sculpture and a deep but soft voice to match. Outwardly he was the opposite of Mike. Reserved and kinda shy, but when it came to sex he could go toe to toe with him.
The more comfortable they both got with what was going on, the more Mike thrust his hips to get as much of his dick n Andre’s mouth as he could. Occasionally Andre would gag as the dick was getting too deep in his throat and he would come up for air. Then he would gently suck Mike’s big balls making Mike moan real heavy, grabbing Andre’s head, pushing it back on his dripping wett dick. After a while, Mike was ready to taste that chocolate ass, so he flipped Andre around, bent him over and went to work. He ate that ass like he was starving. He was just so perfect. Soft but firm, smooth and chocolate. His hole small and pretty. The first lick made Andre jump. He was soft, warm and sensual. The next ones made him moan and once Mike slid his tongue inside he was melted and moaning quite loudly.
This continued for a while. Mike wanted to make sure Andre felt relaxed and that he had gotten his ass super wett. Because Mike didn’t have any lube and he was ready to go balls deep. Andre knew what was coming and asked if Mike had a condom. He lied and said he didn’t to see if Andre would insist. Knowing the rep of his star Andre asked Mike to check to make sure. Mike fit a little mad and said more forcefully he didn’t have one. Not wanting to miss his chance to get that dick. Andre backed down and said ok, Mike smiled and shoved his dick in, just to make a point. Andre screamed and pushed Mike out of him. He asked him why he do that? Mike said to teach a lesson. Andre understood and bent back over. As Mike continued to dig in and plunge Andre’s now wett and open hole he felt that sensation start to rise. He knew that he wasn’t too far away from busting his huge nut.
Mike knew what was coming and based on his increase in tempo Andre started to sense what was coming too. He knew he submitted to Mike fuckin him raw but he didn’t want to be bred by him, because he was unsure if Mike was clean or not. Just as Mike was preparing to make those final deep pumps, Andre between browns said please pull out. Mike appeared to disregard what he heard, because he didn’t answer Andre. Instead he thrust harder and his dick stiffened. He groaned loudly and said “Nigga I’m bout to come.” That was followed by Mike’s big dick throbbing and then releasing. He held his dick deep inside Andre and let his nut empty into his open, wett hole.
Mike slid his glistening, wet dick out of Andre slapping his ass while pulling out. Smiling and still looking at him, Mike said that he would gladly find time to give Andre the dick again if he wanted to keep getting his hole stretched open. Andre stood up, turned around to face Mike and said with a wide grin “mmmm…maybe.” Turning back around to face his locker and get dressed all while laughing, smiling and loving the fact that he finally got that Texas dick he was secretly yearning for.
Both men finished dressing and exited the locker room. Making sure to be engaged in a conversation about the next opponent the team would face, as to not draw attention to himself, Mike was always cautious not to make anything look too suspect. This time his only problem was they weren’t the last two in the locker room as he had assumed. Even though all the showers were off, there was one teammate left besides the two of them. And more importantly than that, he had heard and seen the whole session. Aaron was both sad and excited all at the same time. He had suspected that his star QB was lowkey into guys and now he had his confirmation. He reveled in the fact that he could now try to score one with his teammate, but he was salty that he wasn’t the first teammate to be tamed by that Texas snake. Armed with what he now knows, Aaron started to plot how to use what he saw to get what he wants. He, unlike Mike, was not a DL Bisexual man. He was out and his girlfriend knew it, but he promised he would be faithful to her with both sexes. Although he knew that was promise he was going to break for Mike.
A few months passed and all was quiet regarding Mike, Andre and Aaron. The season had ended, preparation had begun for the next year and all the players were making sure to keep their grades strong, while having more of a social profile, since the end of the season. Mike was being Mike. Living it up, rocking with his girl, having fun at the frat parties, kicking it with teammates, studying and thinking about who he was gone drain his dick in next. He knew he could fuck Andre again, but he wanted someone new. Knowing that doesn’t want to risk drawing attention to himself, whomever he selected next he had to know for sure they wanted him, but would keep the shit a secret between the two of them
It was a Wednesday afternoon and like the days and weeks that preceded it, the football team had just finished their afternoon practice. All the players were showering, getting treatment, clowning around and discussing plans for after they were finished. Mike was busy planning who he was about to fuck next while washing his delicious, caramel body. Knowing that eyes were watching, he always took time to slowly wash his chest, v-cut and dick. He wanted to see if he could catch a staring eye or three. At his locker, sitting just listening to music now as he always does, Mike doesn’t realize the locker room has completely cleared, except for Aaron.
Aaron, knowing that it’s just Mike and him left, walked down to Mike and sat beside him. Getting his attention so he can take off his headphones. Aaron asked Mike if he was ok, seeing as how he was still in just his underwear and the rest of the team had already left. Mike said he was fine, had just got lost in his thoughts. Accepting his answer, he left Mike and went to finish grabbing his stuff to leave. That’s when Mike stood up and made his way to Aaron. Dick starting to get hard and bulge through his underwear. He asked him if he wanted to have fun. Aaron asked what does that and Mike smiled and told him, no questions just answer his question. Nervous, but excited as to where this may go. He said yes and the rest became history.
Mike took off the clothes Aaron had just finished putting on. He slowly started kissing on his neck, gently sliding his tongue on Aaron’s soft skin, making him have chills and moans come out his mouth. He didn’t know that Mike was gone be as aggressive and passionate at the same time. He pulled Mike’s head up to give him a kiss and Mike pulled back, pushing Aaron’s head down to lick his nipples and go down towards his long, thick, precum dripped dick. Not one for being too passionate Mike didn’t want to get too serious, he just wanted to get a feel for that smooth , White ass that he was smacking. Aaron followed the direction given, and happily tasted all of Mike’s body from chest down to his dick.
He saw that dick and almost gagged immediately. Aaron inhaled the smell of Mike’s scent while he bobbed on that dick. He wasn’t exactly sure the pace Mike wanted but he knew he had to be prepared to swallow all that dick. He tried to start off slowly, but Mike wasn’t having it. He grabbed Aaron’s head and pushed it down on his dick. Causing his gag reflex to trigger and push Mike back to catch his breath. After stopping for a second, Aaron went back at it and made Mike moan loudly as he began to throat fuck him with deep thrusts of his pelvis. It was about the time that Aaron’s jaws began to feel sore that Mike pulled his head off his dick and turned him around so he could see that pink booty hole. Aaron had just Naired himself so he knew that his hole was smooth and ready to be ate and fucked. Mike spread Aaron’s cheeks and softly licked his hole. Again, Aaron had chills and jumped a little because it felt so good and warm. Mike grabbed him by the waist spread his cakes again and plunged his thick tongue into Aaron’s waiting ass.
The feeling was so pleasurable. It made Aaron relax more and more Mike licked and sucked on his hole. He was moaning loudly and throwing his ass back, loving every minute of what he was feeling. Mike came up from that hole and was ready to beat it in. With Aaron’s ass already lubed from being ate and his dick brick hard, he put some spit on his dick and slid his fat dick head into Aaron’s tight hole. That pressure from Mike’s dick was so intense he screamed ooouuuu shit!! Mike told him keep yo ass still nigga and take this dick. You wanted it. Now take this dick like a pro nigga. Those words ringing in his ears and his desire to pleasure Mike fully, Aaron started throwing his ass back on Mike and the friction had both men groaning loud.
Mike had Aaron bent over the recliners blowing his back out. His nut flapping against Aaron’s ass as he kept getting balls deep. Pounding and stroking, mixing it up so Aaron’s now gushing, wett hole would keep creaming on his dick. Aaron was unable to keep throwing it back because Mike had sent his sensations into overdrive. His hole was so open and was becoming tender as Mike keeps pounding away with all that meat. The payoff was coming soon for both of them. Mike was feeling his heavy nuts tighten up and so he began to dick deeper into Aaron. Feeling that Mike was getting closer, Aaron used that to throw his ass back to create that extra friction and that put Mike over the top. He groaned, moaned and panted and then you heard, FUUUUCCCKKK. What came after was loads and loads and loads of nut. Flooding Aaron like super soaker.
Exhausted from being fucked senseless, Aaron collapsed in the recliner and couldn’t stop smiling. Those dreams he kept having after seeing Mike fuck had finally come true. It was everything he thought it would be and more. He didn’t know what type of stroke game he was gone get from Mike but he loved it all. He wouldn’t change this experience for nothing. But now he’s realizing that he can’t tell anyone about what just happened. Mike isn’t open like he is, so this had to kept between the two of them. It was the anticlimax to an otherwise amazing afternoon. Mike for his part was sitting there, spent but also feeling great. He always wanted that White ass he just flooded and he can check him off his list. And just like Andre, he told Aaron he would be glad to give him the dick again.
The two men showered, got cleaned up and headed out the locker room back to the rest of campus and to find their girlfriends. Mike and Aaron went for months meeting up here and there for quickies and having fun exploring different places they can fuck and not get caught. They did it just about anywhere they could a secluded space to feel the rush of possibly getting caught. It was a lot for them keep it hidden and it was starting to drain Aaron but it appeared Mike was having a good time. It’s true that he was, but he was starting to feel conflicted because he was enjoying dicking Aaron down so much, but he was also starting to develop feelings for him as they hung out. Now he was torn on whether to come out and pursue Aaron or stay on the low, keep his girl and fuck them both.
The end of summer came and football season was back in full swing. The team was undefeated after the first three weeks and headed towards a date with instate rival the Stanford Cardinals. Mike and Aaron were dominating through the first three games and off the field they were still having casual flings. Mike still wasn’t ready to let the world know that he was a bisexual man. And begrudgingly Aaron agreed and kept his All American’s secret safe. It seemed that nothing to really go wrong for these two. They had the world at their fingertips. They did the same thing that they always did during this week. Found fuck spots twice before game day and then go out to dominate their opponents. Game over Bruins win, Mike and crew keep the hype moving towards their hope to win a national title. He is also alive in the Heisman discussion so there are more cameras, more attention, which means less time for him to fuck Aaron.
It’s been three weeks and there’s been no sex between Aaron and Mike. The star is swamped with Heisman hype and game film study. Also Mike was getting more paranoid before they stopped having sex because he felt they had been doing it too much. Aaron was feeling a bit abandoned by his sexual lover and his best friend. Aaron was wondering what did he do wrong, or if it was a mistake to have been fucking Mike for all these months. Maybe his ass wasn’t good enough for him anymore. There was no way to know because they hadn’t talked and he doesn’t know what to do to try and get answers for himself. The uncertainty surrounding his status with his friend was starting to affect his play. He wasn’t as focused and his play was beginning to hurt the team on offense.
Now we sit here and its USC week. The bitter rival from Southern California was coming to their place for the biggest showdown of the season. Mike knew that he needed his ace wide out at the top of his game if they were going to best USC. That meant he needed to take time to talk to his friend. Tell him why he’s been distant and try to help him get his head on straight. He caught up to Aaron on Tuesday afternoon, before practice and his obligations. He apologized and told him that part of the reason he stayed away is because he needed to focus and he was becoming more uncertain of what he wants in regards to the two of them and their situation. It was weighing heavily on his mind and he decided that for the rest of the season they wont hook up anymore, but he wanted to have one last jaunt tonight.
Aaron sat listening to everything Mike had to say and he felt a sense of shame come over him. He felt like he got too caught up in fucking Mike to really realize that Mike wasn’t going to get into him the same way as he was into him. He heard Mike say that no sex until after the season. He also said that he was not going to come out for him. He was realizing that he was no more than friends with benefits that was holding a secret. Now he had to decide whether he wanted to have that last fuck for the year or if he just wanted to say fuck it and leave Mike alone all together until he decided what he wanted to do. Aaron knew getting that dick would relieve his stress. It would make him feel good, but it also be private and secret, not to be talked about at all on any level. Mike looked at him like he was a hyena in the wild stalking its prey. He was ready to pull put that caramel snake and plow his hole one more time.
Against his better judgement, but following with his ass, Aaron told Mike yes he could fuck him tonight. While Mike has a chess cat grin on his face told you all you would need to know about his plans and intentions, the disappointed look on Aaron’s face let you know exactly how he felt about having to have another discreet hookup. The rest of the passed quickly as usual for them both. And as the time came closer for them to do it, Aaron was having second thoughts about it. See he had quietly broke up with his girlfriend because he could no longer pretend him fucking her was satisfying him and he also wanted his conscious free to pursue Mike.
He thought about texting Mike to tell him that he had changed his mind and he no longer wanted to fuck tonight. Every time he pulled out his phone to send the message he kept having flashbacks to all the sex they’ve had and he didn’t want to miss out on getting his back blown out, having his ass creamy wett and having Mike’s big dick breed his pink hole. The allure of sensual sex was overpowering his desire to hold out in hopes Mike would give him what he really wanted. He chose to get ready for this last session and worry about the rest after it was all over.
He looked at the last video he recorded with Mike of them fucking to get himself even more horny and wet for tonight. He couldn’t take his off Mike’s long dick, his beautiful body and how he was stroking him inch by inch, deeper and deeper. As Aaron got in the shower he began to day dream about the video he just watched. Soaping his defined muscles from his chest down, down his stomach, to his hard seven inch dick, and around to his little plump ass, that was already wett. Fingering his hole slightly, Aaron began to moan and feel the juices inside him on his finger. He quickly put two fingers inside his hole to stretch his hole just a little.
Meanwhile, Mike was in his apartment clowning with teammates, playing video games when he looked at is phone and realized the time. He had to get ready so he could slang that pipe in Aaron and let him know how much he cared for him without breaking his vow to put himself just yet. Mike was planning to tell Aaron that he loved him and that once his collegiate career was done, next year and he declared early for the draft, that he was going to come out so they could pursue a relationship together. He felt great about his decision and even more so, he was excited because he was about to get his dick wett at Aaron’s expense again tonight. Mike visualized the last time he was balls deep in Aaron’s tanned hole. He was picturing Aaron on his back, legs spread open, him pounding away. His body glistening with little beads of sweat. Making Aaron take all his dick until neither could take anymore and he bust a huge loan in his hole. Thinking about this while washing got Mike’s dick to start jumping. He was ready.
Tonight was different for Mike so rather than find a random place for them to fuck they had a hotel room down the street from campus. This way they could take their time, they could talk and not be worried about going caught or interrupted. Mike could fuck all night and really get Aaron stuck on him. That way he hoped that would carry him the rest of the year and season without that huge meat pounding his ass, thumping against his walls. Fresh and fly Mike showed up in his black Nike sweat suit with the brand new retro 11s custom made matching the Bruins school colors. He smelled amazing and he was looking forward to fucking Aaron stupid all night.
First to arrive, Mike set the mood. He had the lights off, candles lit with the music playing too. He had taken his shirt off, so his sexy brown skin was showing and glowing. Perfect body with his blue and white Hollister underwear on, showing as his pants sagged off his round muscle ass. He wanted to tease Aaron as soon as he got there by being shirtless. His way of starting the fun, messing with his mind and beginning what was going to be a very long night. It was shortly after Mike took his shirt off that Aaron knocked at the room door, Mike hesitated for a minute then opened the door. Not expecting him to open the door shirtless, Aaron had an immediate bulge, big smile and little tingle from his hole as the site of Mike turned him on immediately. If Mike told him to get naked right now, Aaron would strip.
Now for his part, Aaron was no slouch. He was wearing some yellow skinny jeans, a white fitted polo and his own custom 11s as well. With just a little sang in his pants, you could tell he had on blue American Eagle underwear. He walked in, smelling good and gave Mike a big hug, holding him an extra second or two, smiling as he felt the muscles and body of his favorite guy touching his. They sat and began talking about how the rest of their day apart went. Laughing and enjoying the story each one told, the chemistry was on full display. You could easily see why both was attracted to the other.
Aaron said he had something he wanted to tell Mike and that it would be a bit a of a game changer for their situation. He eased Mike’s tension by saying it was nothing bad because he could see his demeanor change with that statement being made. So Aaron sat on the bed and Mike sat in the chair. Aaron looked at Mike and told him that a few weeks ago he broke up with his girlfriend. The look on Mike’s face let him know that he was very surprised. Aaron admitted that all the sex he was having with Mike made it impossible for him to be with her because he cheating. And more than that he had developed these strong feelings and didn’t want to let them go. He said that if that meant they could never have sex after tonight he understood because it wouldn’t be as easy for them to hide it.
Mike looked in disbelief at what his best friend and secret fuck buddy had told him. He didn’t really understand why Aaron felt the need to break things off with his girl so abruptly. Yea they’ve been fucking regularly for months now, but that didn’t mean he had to do that now. But he accepted what he had to say and told him that he still wants to resume fucking after the end of the season. He couldn’t allow himself to be distracted in the final couple months of the season with a title chase ongoing and his push towards winning the Heisman trophy. He also said that he wanted to tell Aaron something that would change their dynamic and eased his fears that it was nothing bad.
He looked Aaron in his face and explained that part of the reason for the distance was because he was wrestling with his feelings for him. He confessed that all the time together and the fucking and the friendship they already had made him feel different. It wasn’t jjust fucking for the sake of it. It was the secret hole pounding that gave him the thrill. He admitted that he loved Aaron and he was caught up with those feelings every time he ducked him down. Mike said that once his college career was finished and he had declared for the draft and subsequently been drafted, that he would come out and would attempt to have a relationship with Aaron. Mike felt great getting that off his chest and Aaron’s face was a mix of happiness, sadness and shoc. He was speechless.
Mike didn’t wait for a response. He took all his clothes off, revealing his 10 inch thick dick that was now fully erect. He walked over to Aaron who had taken his clothes off too and put his dick in his mouth. To Aaron it tasted better than before. Maybe the shine from Mike’s announcement had him over the moon, but he was enjoying every second. This time there wasn’t a long oral session, Mike lubed Aaron’s ass and then put some on his dick and slid all his meat up Aaron’s hole into his guts. He slow stroked that hole for seemed like forever. With every stroke Aaron moaned louder, his hole got even wetter and Mike’s balls slapped his ass over and over.
Three hours later, three nuts later they were still at it. This time Mike had Aaron riding his dick. Bouncing up and down, all way to the base. Full of dick Aaron groaned, grabbed Mike’s arms and begged for him to stop. Mike smiled kissed his hand and pounded away, getting that ass wett, gushy and creamy. He flipped Aaron over to his back, put his legs in the air and plowed back into his tender, stretched hole. The pounding and subsequent sounds of dick and ass juice filled the room. Mike was ready to let his last nutt out and Aaron was ready to take it. As if perfectly timed, Mike’s balls swelled, his dick stiffened even more and then an explosion happened. Loads of nutt shot into Aaron’s hole. Each warm burst being felt, he knew it was done and so was this session. Both men spent, they lay in the bed next to each other. Smiling, breathing heavy and content. Knowing that once they leave in the morning this is last memory of sex together for months. Aaron lay in Mike’s arms until they fall asleep and thinking to himself this could be his life, what an adventure it would be.

Almost Isn’t Enough

I heard this song one day while I was completing my Saturday morning activities nd got me thinking. Why is it that when things fail we put time nd effort to, we seem to have extra emotional distress?

The answer can be found in the title of this blog. See I get it, sometimes it’s said in life that if you come close to the best outcome but fall just short we should celebrate that result. Because many have attempted nd failed yo even reach that level.

I’m going to say maybe that works in ur professional life or on sum personal project ur working on. But when it comes to matters of the heart nd downfall of a relationship that concept doesn’t apply. When you get close to the ultimate goal u envision for urself nd fall short it’s actually devastating.

How many times have u truly thought u had that one only to have things unravel? Now of those times how many times did u just accept it nd say at least u tried? Now how many times did u have some distress nd pain because u thought this was it?

I completely understand the pain nd heartache that comes wit loving nd thinking that u have found the one that will share ur future for the 40 or 50 years or so, only to be devastated because close ain’t enough. The feelings u have are hard to comprehend or release. People will tell u they understand but u must move forward.

While u kno that’s the truth u sometimes just want to wallow in ur own feelings because u realize that u don’t know how many chances at love u will get. U know that the starting over process is time consuming nd sometimes faulty. All these things makes one realize that often times we resign ourselves to accept that we tried. But we still remember nd agonize over the fact that Almost Isn’t Enough.

Harnessing The Power of Love

As I’ve listened and talked to folks the past couple days regarding the Royal Wedding, I’ve come away with the perception that we are missing the mark on the great opportunity provided. These two people that wed disregarded race nd background. They found love nd they ran with it.

The public, especially large pockets of Black America, has been picking apart the Wedding nd chastising it for the reactions of the Royal Family nd some others in attendance to the Bishop’s Sermon. Pundits have said he missed an opportunity, some have said the Gospel Choir was out of place and many are questioning the Dutchesses Black card.

I for one have had enough, damn! The woman is beautiful, has pigmented skin and doesn’t have to validate herself to all the dark is better movement that exists. It makes me wonder if anyone heard the message being delivered by the Bishop. He talked about the healing power of love. He spoke of how God’s love is unique nd unifying. He talked about how we can heal a nation nd unite a people behind love.

He spoke about taking the fire and passions of life nd harnessing it to work for the good of the people. Tying it together he said if love is present with harnessed power it can’t be stopped. What was the point? Instead of using the fire to damage each other, learn to harness that power nd combine it with real love to make the world a better place

So come on man stop the fucking bickering. End the Black card games, dismiss the wrankles of the past. Tske history and learn from it. Take ur passion nd channel it into positive action. Love each other genuinely nd then we all can harness the power of love nd prevail.