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The Christmas Miracle

I went to the movies this past weekend and saw Krampus. Now before I get into the movie I want to say that this time of the year is without a doubt my favorite time of the year. I love the holiday season. The time that folks get to spend with their loves ones and the smiles that you see across folks faces. It just seems to be that when the calendar turns to November and December people get just a little bit nicer and treat each other just a little bit better.

Given that first paragraph, I also know that this time of the year is extremely hard for some. They may have lost loved ones this time of the year or their loved ones aren’t around anymore to share these beautiful moments with. It could also be that they have to work a lot or just don’t have anyone to spend the holidays with. Could also be that money is funny and you can’t really buy anyone anything, so this time of the year is a drag when you see all the commercials about buying things for the holiday to show your love.

I am on the record many times for saying that I feel that Thanksgiving gets massively overlooked because there isn’t a retail pitch to be made aside from spending money on food to fix for your family and friends. Christmas gets all the pub because there is commercial value there. Gifts galore and spend, spend, spend. Sometimes we forget that this time of the year is meant to give thanks and spend that quality times with those that you love and cherish the most.

Sometimes I think if we remembered that the gift of Christmas is having people to spend it with that love you and appreciate you whether you can afford to buy them gifts or not.

If you see this movie Krampus, one of the messages you will take away is the power of the belief of the Christmas magic. Santa Clause and the Elves and just the holiday magic itself. You believe that this time of year allows for you to put aside you petty differences and believe in the power of the spirit and the coming together so celebrate and enjoy the company of one another.

Those movie plays on the fact that kids are the precious angels that protect Christmas and the miracle that encompasses it. That when you spoil it too soon for them and you take away that belief and magic, that the “evil” of Christmas will display. That is, that we forget why we are coming together and we focus on the things that separate us rather than what binds us together.

Children, families, individuals are the pulse behind Christmas. Seeing your child run to the tree and open all their presents. Having that Christmas party where everyone is laughing and dancing, playing games and just getting lost in the moment. Making those lasting memories that when you’re apart you can think back to, look back at and smile because you created something that will last forever.

Folks that’s the Christmas miracle. Giving your time, energy or money to those less fortunate who can’t afford what you can. Letting others know that even though they may feel forgotten, you remember them. The power is inside each and everyone of us. What we do with it and how we use it is makes the season great every year. So come on folks take some time to laugh and play. Sing some songs, give some gifts and most of all share your Christmas spirit, because that’s how you will keep the Christmas Miracle going for decades and decades.

Happy Holidays America

 

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My First Time

The kinda person I am, I try not to be very hypocritical with what I say when advising people in comparison to what I’ve done. Let me talk a lil about this subject in my heading. As it is not a secret I’m gay. But before I came out a long time ago, HEHE, I did have sex with a female too.. Or should I say multiple females.

I remember the first time I had sex with a girl and damn sure remember the first time I had sex with a dude. Both fucking and gettin’ fucked. I can remember that at the time it was everything and thinking back on it now, I still feel the same way. While there are times I wished that I would have waited longer before my first sexual rendezvous with a dude, I was glad I got it out the way when I did, because it honestly allowed me to be free to explore sex and determine what I liked and what I didn’t like.

Now that I have been in the role of “Father” for the past decade, I don’t have conversations with my kids or those I’ve mentored over the years where I tell them not to have sex or to hold it until they find that magical someone to be their first. Reason being: that is not a true reality as much anymore. Teenagers are horny and experimentative and want to experience the acts of sex because of what they see on Porn and hear from their friends who are sexually active.

Especially in the gay community, losing your virginity has become a novelty thing and not so much a trophy to hang on to and a trophy to cherish when the nigga takes it. We are now in an age where sex is just that sex. And folks want to have the experience of different partners, different sizes(length and width) and also different roles. Tops try to bottom and vice versa. I personally think it’s a very smart thing to do because you have to know what you like and what you don’t like.

Those who hold those traditional preaching of holding out for that special someone, I respect where you come from, why you feel that way and the thought that goes into that advice. But, the truth is if you didn’t practice that and you came out fine, don’t try to make someone go down a path that you yourself chose not go follow. Everyone is different and should be allowed to decide when they wanna give it up and who they wanna give it up to.

Some people just love sex from any early age and never grow out of it. Some love it early and as they grow older slow down so they can have something meaningful and make sure their dick and ass ain’t worn out or infected. Some do it in reverse. Lite sex early but lots of it later on. I think that all of these options and all options in between make sense and should be explored until you find what works for you.

As for me, well let’s just say I’ve had my fare share of experiences and I know what I like and what I don’t. But, let me also say that having sex with one person, and it being passionate and amazing is damn fun and pleasurable. I wonder what folks think about this? What was  your first time like? What was your sex life like? Did you grow out of wanting sex all the time? Did you not want earlier in your life but as you got into your 20’s and 30’s did it pick up? Did you stay a low key sex person? Are you an undercover freak?

Speak to me people. Lets talk

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You Prejudiced Bigot.. I mean Republican Presidential Candidate

You know I’ve had a few conversations over the past few weeks and months about this current crop of Presidential candidates on both sides of the aisle, but most importantly the Republican side; and definitely their policies, the lack thereof and their ungodly disdain for our President and the freedoms they claim to support.

Let me perfectly clear, I dislike everything about Donald Trump and every other Republican Presidential candidate, except John Kasich’s positions on Obamacare. I think that it’s quite annoying that all the media really wants to do is pump air into the Trump campaign. I know some may say that with this blog talking about him and getting others to read it that I’m propping up his candidacy as well. I say that your stupid if you think that.

I do no talk about him just to shine a light on him;  my efforts are to allow others to read and objectively and subjectively, LOL, understand that this man is playing the American public for a fool and if he is serious about running for President with these outlandish proposals and ideals as a candidate, this country is will in a world of hurt if he somehow finds a way to win.

I hope that we understand that the United States of a America is a nation of immigrants from all over the world. There is not a single person here who should be abdicating that we ban Muslims from entering this country because of one incident in America and the incident in Paris. I think anyone who is stupid enough to say you support Trump or agree with his proposal, you must be a bigot yourself, or you must not remember that your family is not “All American.”

What if another President said we will ban the Jewish people or the Asian community or ban Africans or Latinos from entering the United States. Lest we not forget that the individual who went on the killing rampage in Colorado just the week prior to the California massacre, was not a Muslim. He was an American who is Pro Life. Now don’t get me wrong. I love folks who are Pro Life, but lets make sure we understand that Pro Life doesn’t just apply to unborn babies. That applies to all of human life.

That means that when an individual or individuals shoot and kill innocent victims because of their beliefs, that is a violation of the Pro Life movement. That is an act of terrorism too. See we seem to only want to classify terrorism acts as those perpetrated by folks from foreign nations, nationalities or religions. How stupid can we be?

You want to know why we can’t truly defeat ISIL or ISIS? It’s because every time something like what happens in Colorado or Paris happens, ignorant ass Politicians and Candidates want to politicize the issue and make ridiculous, asinine statements like banning Muslims or calling a religion  Radical.

Why the fuck is that every time something happens that “supports” Republican mantras they run to the extreme? And the blowhards in the Republican media that want to support this foolishness are just as culpable for the race bating as the candidates promoting it. I want people to Google the statement Trump has made about other nationalities, religions and ethnicities.

He has called for all illegal immigrants to be returned to their countries. He called Mexicans rapists and criminals. He has called for a ban on Muslims into America. He has called for a rejection of all Syrian refugees trying to flee the daily war and violence in their nation. But, he won’t speak ill of the Americans who do dastardly deeds to other Americans in the name of their cause or more importantly, Trump’s and other candidates causes.

Ted Cruse is no different than Trump. His ignorant ass makes the same outlandish statements as Trump because they both want to use American fear to their advantage and ride it all the way to the White House. I hope that we realize that while we have had isolated incidents, as far as, terrorism is concerned, we have been protected from any further attacks on this country. Folks lets face it: President Barack Obama has kept this country safe, avoided sending troops into battle in mass and has rebuilt some key American alliances.

Is there more work to do? Yes. But has this man done his job? Damn right. I’m really sick of tall these hawkish Republican people who say that because the President didn’t have a scowl on his face or ignite a new war by saying he’s sending hundreds of thousands of troops back into the Middle East for a ground war and air war, that he doesn’t have a plan.

Lemme ask a question: When President 43 tried that approach what the fuck happened? I’ll wait…?? When Obama used his approach, we caught and killed top militant leaders and killed Bin Laden. Never forget Obama is the reason that happened, not Trump, Cruse or any other Republican.

How do you feel about the hot air given to Trump and not to the real candidates? What are your feelings on all of the stuff said and happening? Talk to me..

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A Country At War

I know you think this post is about our fighting on foreign soil, but if that’s what you think.. Oh boy are you so damn wrong. I’m absolutely about to unload on the war on home soil and this will spare no rod.

Have you taken a look at what’s going on in our own backyard? Have you paid attention to the killing in the streets, by civilians and more importantly by law enforcement? Have you seen the mass murders taking place left and right in this country? Years ago we had the Newtown 26, where 26 children and school officials were killed in a mass murder.

Today, in California, we have the San Bernardino 14. Got damn it, what do we have to do in order to finally get these spineless, gutless, scared Politicians to do the damn job they were sent to Congress to do: Serve the people of the United States of America. My God, how many people have to run through the streets, cities and states of America with automatic weapons killing innocent Americans? How many damn times so we have to hear the bullshit line “Let us pray for the people affected” by Politicians so in bed with the NRA that they get fucked by them more than their spouses?

I’m so sick and damn tired of hearing Republicans speak that dumb shit about the reason these incidents take place is because they are no “no gun” zones. When the fuck will you ignorant ass people wake up and realize the reason this shit keeps happening is because there are too many fucking guns on the street? When will you realize that because we are so quick to vehemently defend gun rights, that we don’t take common sense steps to protect us from people who should not be buying guns?

Who the hell really believes that we need assault weapons in the hands of people who want to do harm to people, for whatever reason they come up with in their sick and twisted minds. We keep talking about how we need to take out ISIS and all this other shit, but we need to enact gun laws and change our ways of thinking in our society that says guns are the answer to the problem.

The freest country in the world is at war with itself because it can’t separate itself from a damn gun lobbyist that thinks if we try to remove unnecessary weapons off the streets and place sensible restrictions on who can get a gun, that somehow we are infringing on the rights of gun owners.

Damn it America get this partisan bullshit out of your head. Please realize this is not about Democrats or Republicans. This is not about Black or White, Gay or Straight. This is about America. A nation that’s suppose to pride itself on being the best but we can’t agree to take care of each other.

This is not about me railing against gun ownership, because truth is, I’m a liberal Democrat that is a supporter of an individuals right to own and carry a gun. But even saying that, I damn sure am in favor of stricter laws on who can get a gun and the background checks being needed before you can purchase a gun. America we need to band together because the time is now for us to say enough is enough.

How many times do we need to see mass shootings on t.v. before we get tired of seeing this shit? Who needs to die before there is action taken by the spineless politicians sitting in Washington D.C.? Will we ever say enough is enough damn it? Please America let’s join together with one voice and say no more. We need to stop saying it’s too soon to talk about this issue. We need to stop saying it’s not right to politicize this issue.

The honest truth is we have been too damn late for years but it’s never to late to make a change. The voice of the many need to be heard. No more silence. Let’s make sure these folks in D.C. know we won’t tolerate this anymore.

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Fears of Love

You know as I’ve had time to sit back and reflect on the recent things that I’ve gone through the past couple months, I have a new found appreciation for how much loving a person can make someone live in fear at the same time.

I know that to some that may sound crazy or may not make sense, but if you really understand what love is all about it can make anyone’s inner demons and insecurities come out because you fear that the person that you love would leave you if they know your truth. I think that this issue is a growing problem in this society because so many people aren’t comfortable enough with themselves to truly love someone.

As I look out towards the truth even surrounding folks close to me, I see how much past pains and hurt have led them to have such a fear of loving with all their might. See, they feel as if that something bad will happen or they will be heartbroken or embarrassed for loving someone with all that’s inside of them. I think that what people do is get so caught up in not only their past pains, but also the pains and trials of their friends.

Someone really needs to talk to me and tell me why what someone else went through in their own relationship is affecting you in your own personal relationship. No two people are the same and no two people go through the same experiences. While, you may experience similar things because you get treated a similar way by different folks. the truth is each relationship is its own entity and no one should be basing their love life off that of those around them. It is a falsehood that makes one think that they will truly gain their knowledge about how to handle their own affairs from hearing the issues of a friend or family members love pitfalls.

The other thing that I think is absolutely ridiculous, is that everyone wants to spend their time fixing the love life of someone else but they don’t truly take enough time to fix their love life or fix themselves. One day people will realize that when you are always trying to fix someone else’s relationship, your relationship suffers because all you do is bring the problems of their relationship to your own, if you’re not strong enough to separate the two.

Love is rough and requires the utmost attention and focus. You must realize that to love is to be selfless. To love is to give yourself to that one who you trust with all your might. To love is to understand that your home must be in lock step before you work on another home. Love means that when things happen you deal with them and let them go. Love means that you learn to compromise when needed and be firm when required. All of these things that love is and requires is what makes the fear so strong. Because we get so caught up in roles and positions and who should pay what and who should control who, that we forget about the love. Hence, the fear that always hovers over the relationship.

Are you in fear? Or are you in love?

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To Serve and Protect

Ah, we sit here again as we face another round of tragic horror stories of police officers in America, killing young, unarmed, innocent, Black men. From Illinois to Minnesota and other parts of the nation, we are again dealing with this crisis.

America, I am the first man to say that we need the police men and women whose jobs are to protect and service the members of the communities that they are sworn to protect. But the facts are the damn facts. Too many damn unarmed, black men are being shot and killed needlessly. I’m tired of hearing of how the police are ready to say, “Since people want to record and hold us accountable, we won’t do as much protecting and serving.” That is a line that has been said by many leaders within those ranks.

I am really sick and tired of Police departments covering up the injustice and wrongdoing. I really annoyed that leaders of these states aren’t forcing the police officers and precincts to release these videos of the shootings taking place. I’m tired of seeing all the disturbing videos that show police brutality and abuse.

All over this country police officers are taking things into their own hands a little too much and the people who they are suppose to protect and serve are being killed and buried. Far too often we are hearing the same fucking line of it was self defense. Since when is an unarmed man a deadly threat to you? With the ability to taze a potentially dangerous individual or the ability to shoot them and debilitate them, why are so many officers of the law just choosing death.

And before you think I don’t understand, I do. It can be very difficult to be a cop and determine what level of force is needed at times, but I’ll be damned if the only solution is to always kill someone. Fuck that, take them down and all that shit, but I’m tired of seeing cops get off for murder just because the argument is: “it was in the line of duty.”

An officer of the law is supposed to be a servant, not the judge, jury and executioner as often as we see it. Yes accountability is suppose to be at the top of the list for all people who work in America. You are suppose to be accountable to whatever the customer is that you serve. So as I said once before, damn the self defense argument. There are so many great cops who get overshadowed because the macho cop wants to be “the man.”

My response, put that ass in jail and make them do time for the crimes they commit and we will surely see less of this all powerful cop business we see so much now. Oh and by the way, if you get some responsible officials in office who are ready to be fair to all, then we can get somewhere.

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The Shame of America

Ladies and gentlemen of this great nation, I completely understand and realize that those partisan people who love Republicans will blindly support the demeaning, defamatory, prejudicial comments and beliefs of the candidates for President, but please wake up. I realize that people think that Progressives in this country are invading on your personal rights and making the government too strong, but stop this nonsense.

For the life of me I can’t understand why folks want to continue to argue that this country is worse off now than it was at any point in our history. Yes, we have more threats to our safety and we are struggling to have wage equality and opportunity equality professionally, but we are a nation that is much better off now than we were just seven short years ago.

I want all of you to take stock of where we were as a nation just seven years ago. We were going through the biggest downturn in the economy since the Great Depression. The banking sector, housing sector, financial sector, automotive sector were all in freefall. Jobs were being lost hand over fist; government employees were forced to take days off without pay; pensions of millions of Americans were being eviscerated due to the stock market crashing.

We were caught up in two wars with endless amounts of money being spent and countless American soldiers being asked to go to war over and over again. We were dealing with crisis at every turn. Gas prices were up and down, gouged through the roof and the prospects of recovery seemed bleak at best.

Now, the economy is stronger from a jobs perspective than at any time honestly, we have a stock market that is strong and thriving, the financial, banking, automotive and housing sectors have rebounded with resounding strength and surpluses being generated. The issue we really need to address is wages and opportunities at job growth for ordinary Americans.

See, I’m a realist I know that we will not be able to get anywhere with wage increase unless we get more Democrats into office, both locally and nationally. America must wake up and realize that Republicans do not and have not created job growth when in control of the White House or Congress in the last thirty years. Damn people, are we so beholden to our “ideas” of our party alliance that we can’t see the value in voting truly on issues and not historical “ideology?”

We are always going to be a nation that is always split because we are made up of great people on all sides of the aisle. But one thing that needs to be remembered is that our country doesn’t succeed when we talk down our success, but rather when we coalesce around our great possibilities.

Wake up America, the doom and gloom isn’t necessary

 

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How Thankful Are you

Let me honest, this holiday season has been one of a mixed bag. Where it is tradition that I go home and see my mom and the rest of my family for this Thanksgiving break I get from the office, this year I’m still here spending the time with my other family.

It has been a little bitter sweet because the truth is I am a Mama’s boy, no matter how old I am, and I miss her a lot. But the truth also is that I’m always able to speak to her and this year does seem fitting, for the most pat, that I spend the holiday here.

One thing I can say that all year long I have said that I’m thankful for the job, people and opportunities I’ve been given. It doesn’t take for this time of year to come around for me to give Thanks to God for the great things in my life. And even though there are some things that I’m truly unhappy about, I’m still thankful that I have the ability to be of clear mind and soul to feel and think about these things on my own.

I am so thankful that I have a wonderful partner to share and grow with in my life. I’m thankful that I have close friends who love and care for me. I’m thankful for the extended family that I’ve spent years growing and developing. For all the things I don’t know that have happened to keep me safe and all the things that I do know that God has brought me through.

If you really know that you are a person who has a lot to be thankful for, it shouldn’t take this week or tomorrow for you to tell those around you that you appreciate them, or that you show whatever deity you believe in that you’re grateful. I always say that we are a nation that doesn’t really hold strong to the family aspect of this great nation, because we are too busy working and dealing with the stresses of life.

So yes, while I do think that we need to do a better job of showing our thanks all year long, we most certainly need to take this time out and make sure anyone who means something to you knows that you love them, you appreciate them and that you are thankful to have them apart of your life, because they didn’t have to be there.

 

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Paris We Stand With You

As I have watched the coverage of the horrific tragedy that took place in Paris yesterday, my first thoughts are to say my sincere and heart felt condolences to all those affected by this heinous act. I can only imagine just how devastated, shocked, and saddened the people of France must be. To the Americans that were involved God speed and to all those individuals from nations across the planet may you be safe and protected through this difficult time.

Secondly my thoughts immediately go to this: The price of freedom is ever growing and those who disagree with us would rather see us dead than find a harmonious way to coexist. To that thou, I also say Paris, be strong and all of the world be strong. We cannot allow the acts of savages and extremists to control ourselves. I love how the French President has come out with such vigor and strength.

I can remember back to September 11, 2001, when America was attacked and President 43 vowed vengeance. Unfortunately it took until President Obama came to office to get the man who we wanted, but his words were much the same. And the extreme vigor with which we struck back was amazing. But, more importantly, the strength showed by the people of this great nation was amazing. Now France you must respond as a nation united. As a people that can put differences aside to show those who mean you harm that you will not destroy your country.

ISIS, ISIL whatever you want to be called, you may have done damage but remember a painful, damaged nation of people combined with partners who want to take you out can do one big thing: Galvanize the world to want to take your sorry ass out. I guess you never heard of the phrase to “let a sleeping giant rest.” Well guess what, I think you’re about get something that you really didn’t want. And that’s a pissed off nation of people that want to kick your ass.

I fully realize that terrorist have one simple mission and that’s to disrupt the way of life of the people they wish to terrorize. I also understand that fighting violence with violence isn’t the preferred way forward. But when you know that someone doesn’t wish to settle things peacefully and they want all of you to die, well I say give them bitches a taste of their own medicine.

All of this being said, America we must do better. See our politics and the loose and disrespectful nature with which we allow ourselves to talk about the leader of our country and those we disagree with, it creates a climate to foreign nations that say its ok for them to do what they’re doing because we don’t have the common respect that should be given to leaders who aren’t like the majority of our countries leadership.

I have always said that we must be respectful to one another because someone is always looking at what you do to find justification for what they do. And so all this being said, here is what I have to say to all of us. America we must continue to live as we normally do. France and all nations around the world you must continue to act normally. You have to show these bastards that despite their efforts to scare your leaders and you as citizens, you have to stand up and say you will not terrorize us from what we do.

May God and whatever deity you worship continue to bless us all.

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The Power of One

I know that I may have touched on this before, but you know recently my pastor preached about the ability to grow by yourself. And you know for some people that might be too much to handle, because so many folks are afraid to be alone long enough to evaluate themselves and make the necessary changes to them and in their lives to prevent from going through the same things over and over again.

It is a definite sign of maturity and strength when you can allow yourself to pull away from the world, for a time. long enough to realize that you need to grow up and become a better individual. See one thing we must all realize is that while we can seek out those who have more experience and wisdom in the world to gain knowledge and understanding of the things, but you still must be able to take the information and apply it your way and style so that you can be the best you that you can, not the best someone else.

Change must be something that you realize on your own needs to happen. You can’t be forced into making changes, nor can you be so lucid in your beliefs that you let people change you. See there is something to be said about not even allowing love to change you from the core of who you are.

Remember that real change usually occurs when your by yourself. Even if you are in a relationship, you have to know that self growth and motivation must still be the basic premise for changes, not just because you love someone and want to be with them. From this guys perspective, I’ve always made the best changes when I’ve isolated myself from people. I think that people have to have a solid understanding of yourself to know that self development is so very key.

Not a lot on this, but just a little refresher to update this. Tell me your thoughts, let me know how you feel.