Every so often the universe/God, has to remind You just how in tune You are with it. On a random day, at a very random time, Your peace gets disturbed in the best way possible. You encounter someone dismissed as fake and parasitic. They present themselves to You with the same fever and genuine excitement to have been able to plug back into the source. Giddy with excitement fills the space between the two of you. Giving air between texts to think and feel. Smiling and laughing the whole time, all because someone who brings out Your passion and emotion has returned. Understanding that the type of passion he unlocks is purely from a place in the heart. Touching the purest points inside You because You realize just how fueling he can be to You and You to him. What the fuck is the problem then? He’s needed time to learn and grown. Admitted to himself, when You began talking. Asked directly and answered with that phrase. Learning what? I guess time will truly tell us that. Admitting that only You know how to excite him inside. Not like that, LOL, not yet anyway, LMMFAO.

Saying that no one makes him feel the feelings, emotions that You do. Able to speak with commanding presence. Talk with a clarity and definitiveness that resonates with his spirit, touching his soul. From what it appears, he is and has always been fascinated with You. Your energy, presence, physical appearance, everything. You clash substantively at times, because You see the world from different view, but they’re mostly complementary. He desires for Your manly approach. Placing boundaries around his social life and enforcing them in the face of his friends. Loving on each other intentionally, purposefully, and passionately. Carefully aware not to deflect potential moments that could bring foundational joy. His energy for You has never been in question. Truth is, You have always been the prize in his eyes. He actually has been remarkably consistent in that regard. Throughout the three plus years you’ve known each other, You always were talked about with great excitement and arousal. Never able to be shown because of his reluctance. A combination of being scared and not having a real experience to draw from. Needing to live life a little more. Experience some things, talk to people, learn about himself, grow in his self-confidence and self-awareness. Understanding that even now, there will adjustment and growth. Time to see if the energy, aura, and vibe transcend from socially, to privately. Never rushing, always efficiently, moving to reveal what lies beneath the surface.

Words have meaning, the power is given when meanings are universally understood and accepted and/or there is a physical verification or validation of the words and their meanings. We can’t pretend like when someone tells us something that we want to hear, like it doesn’t get a lil warm on the inside part. Hoping that these words will be affirmed and manifest themselves with actions from the person who used the words. Why do we get so upset with someone who uses words we understand? Because we place expectation or responsibility on the individual to deliver on the promise of their words. When the door opens again the expectations will be the same. There isn’t a softening until the actions show up and match the words delivered. If it doesn’t happen this time, then that will write the final page, the book. We know how the story goes in that case. And where we stand at life today, we don’t have time for anyone that wants to lip service anything.

Now You are the person who never needs to be explained. You’re always talked about but rarely identified. You are my private life. Very few have ever seen You. And never because I’m ashamed. I mean real shit… You are the definition of a baddie. Head to toe, personality and all. For almost five years now, we’ve been each other’s silent love affair all this time. Never pushing an agenda, not trying to make anything happen. Loving the space and peace we have with and for each other. Always understanding that if/when the time presents itself, the moment will be there. Sometimes missing the signs myself, that innocently and subvertly show up. We always fill each other’s space with the things that are missing. If we just need to talk, endless hours reliving the past days, weeks, months, years of our life, there we are. Never being afraid to indulge ourselves in the moment. Overcoming any obstacles trying to prevent us from flowing through our conversation. Whatever topics we desire to bring up. Sharing whatever intimate details we want. Protecting each other from too much. Realizing that there is something being quietly built. Not to be discussed really, but always to be understood between us and us alone.

Always knowing when to drop a little tease. Keeping that tension at a peak. Reminding ourselves of what it is. I recently had something happen and my mind instantly clicked to understand that it was another reminder about You. That reminders of You can come from other people with no connection to You at all. It’s amazing at how much we keep away from the world when we truly want to protect something or someone. We will give details and present the conversation, but if we are concealing who it is, we will take ALL cautionary measures to be as general and obsequious as necessary to shield You. In some ways, You could say it’s the ultimate tease. Always just at the fingertips, never within full grasp. Can you imagine the feeling? Knowing that the potential is right in front of You, it’s just not ready to be tapped yet. You have to be comfortable with that, and take Your chances that if a serious threat comes up, You will be given full opportunity to present Your case as to why it should be You and not them. You know part of the issue will be, until you finally build that final bridge, is contending with close outsiders. He provides everything that like, want, need. Intelligent, gorgeous, direct, outspoken, loving. It reads like the one, two, three of things to be for You. Always knowing when enough is enough. Never overstaying, and willing to share with You no matter what. Now isn’t the time to really expound on You, there is more work to be done. But You’re in the conscious because You never let Yourself leave. The unspoken do always speak.