It’s not too often that I sit back and say.. damn, that really is me. But this seems to be one of those moments. That I’m witnessing the revolutionized version of me is mind boggling. We only hope that at some point we get to encounter the next iterations of ourselves. A beautiful and real reminder from life that your seasons are beginning to fade. There is still plenty of room at the table for You, but the main course isn’t exclusively yours, and You may not be the favored entree in a majority of situations. This isn’t one of those times though, and you may have just found the secret to your life happiness.

You engage the conversation with all the attention that it deserves. You occasionally immerse yourself in the dialog. Listening to the words and stories given, but not actively paying attention to the lessons and the guidance given. Choosing to almost bluntly disregard the blueprint provided. Determined to figure it out in Your distinct ways. Wanting to quizzitively challenge the words and premise because you believe that you have answers, however wrong and distorted they may be. Realistically knowing that all you really want to do is keep me talking and engaged in discussions with you. Leaving it to every day would be filled with endless hours to banter. It is the secret way to unlock the keys to your magical kingdom. Speaking with clarity and difference. Bluntly and, at times for You, overly critical, excites Your senses. There’s an innocently cute quality attached to your undeterred quest for information. There’s this split complex to you though. You’re not all words and intellect. You just treasure the emotional connectivity because that heightens the physical flames for You. Then there’s the social You. A more eccentric version of what I put on display when I chose to put my face in the world. All the same impressive.

As much as I want to distance You from me because I know what You could do, if I allowed it. My spirit and soul won’t let me pull away because it’s secretly what I crave. I scream in my head for this kind of magnetic pull. Knowing how far to push the other, while gaining valuable insight and information. The forces are irresistible. Never needed to clout or status, always because we fit into the waves of each other’s life smoothly and seamlessly. The problem that keeps tripping You is that You’re trying to reverse to progress and it’s not working well. You can’t keep trying to force old standards on new situations. It will only keep causing confusion and problems. Eventually, you can destroy the present because you kept looking too much to the past for the answers. If you want something new and different, You must do different. And Yes, I know this shit is toxic on soo many levels. LMFAO. Intentionally pushing each other’s buttons is extreme, but that’s the way we’re wired, and it works. Just don’t keep pushing it, I’m not very patient and I will lose my shit. LMFAO. Thirsting for knowledge is a mighty tool to possess. The discernment to know when to activate that tool and how hard to go when you use it, that’s the most powerful tool in the box.

Consumption with talking is going to get you hurt though. We don’t live life for words alone. We require actions to validate the words, or else it all becomes hollow. When you think you see yourself, how do you react? What are the thoughts you have and are you wondering if they can feel or read your thoughts, like you feel and read some of theirs? Life always be fuckin lifeing. I am always in awe of the way things happen when you least expect them to. When You just live authentically. Damn.. I love writing. I miss this shit. You never know what time period I’m writing from… Some shit to think about huh…???