Laying here thinking about the news I was told. Letting my mind wonder to grasp the seriousness and the heartache that I felt. Knowing that I’ve been through the same thing and have had and maybe still have similar thoughts to the ones you possess. I can only wonder what really is my duty. What should I be doing, both intentionally and purposefully to ensure that you feel all that you need to in order to know that better is here and lies ahead for you and us. What is it that one would want to hear and feel so that they know that what was will never be again, as long as I’m around? I came to a few conclusions and this forum allows me to put it in the universe for the winds to take it manifest it and spread it from coast to coast, ocean to ocean.

I promise you that I will always be there to hear your innermost private thoughts and feelings. I promise that I will always be there to be the ear you need to listen, the sounding board you need to talk to. I will be the rock that supports your foundation. I will be that shoulder that you need to lean on. I will be that comforter when you feel less than your best. I will be the guider to help navigate the uncertain and uneasy feelings you possess. These were the first sets of things I came to when I said what is needed from me. These I think encapsulate what is needed when I first think of some that heinous happening and the true support needed once you start to emerge from that dark terror. It is that compassion and empathy that will help to move you along healing from the situation.

Then I started to extrapolate that a little further and deeper. That’s when I came to the heart of the matter and depths that I’m willing to go to for you. I promise that I will be your protector when you need that extra shield. I will be there to make sure you never feel alone or lonely, in moments where you just need time to yourself. I will make sure that I am always responsive to you. There to make sure you always know that no matter what, I will never put you in position that to happen or ever allow someone to approach with a disgusting suggestion. I promise that I will always show you the love and attention that you need. I will provide the love and care and affection that is required, whenever it is required. It doesn’t matter if it’s morning, afternoon or midnight hours. Anytime you need to have your soul touched, your spirit put at ease or mind pacified I will be here.

These things came to me after really allowing myself to remember what it was like for me to have to go through that trauma and the variety of things needed coming out from that and trying to be with someone again afterwards. I know that it will not be easy and most of all it will take a large amount of patience and understanding. It will require me to be more openly cognizant of your sensitivity and emotional needs. Knowing all of this can be overwhelming if you’re not prepared or ready for the tasks. But when I look at your beautiful face and I feel the strength of your heart, I know that I’m more than prepared and able to handle this situation.

It it definitely when you learn the deepest, darkest parts of your lover that you can truly gain even stronger love and appreciate for that person. It is then, in my opinion, that your love starts to learn bounds that you never thought possible. I think that each person is responsible for bringing themselves happy and as whole as possible to the relationship, but I also feel that it is the responsibility of your partner to ensure that you maintain that happiness by striving to give you the happiness that a companion, a lover and hopeful forever partner provides. It is my opinion that if you can’t promise someone that level of love and happiness, then you need to think twice if they are for you.

As I started and as I finish, I ask myself am I really being the man that is needed for this situation? I know that I am because when I see that beautiful smile on your face, or when I hold you close after sharing that story, I feel the love and comfort come out of your body. I feel you relaxing and trusting that the arms that hold you are also protecting you. If this love story has the ending that we desire, then everything that I have promised you has definitely come true.