It’s a really hard thing when you lose someone that you care about. No matter if it’s a lover or a friend, family or someone you consider family. It’s also really difficult when you lose a lover that you thought would be around, or the people who’ve had your heart and broken it, or return and try to take advantage of it. As I’ve grown up and matured though, I realized that each event must be taken on its own merits and you got to heal from each one to truly get better.

I lost my best friend of 10 years a year ago and my heart is still weakened from that loss because it was tragic and unexpected. He was one of those friends that always was there and never judged me for anything that I did or didn’t do. He was a special person that can never be replaced and the void from him I know will take time to heal from . Compounding that with the difficulties of failed relationships and close friendships makes it even harder.

All of these things and so much more I keep on my mind and in my heart, and yet most people never know these things because I choose not to divulge them and just make sure that the face people see is a smile and the emotions and feelings people know are those that I want you to see. Learning how to cope with a heavy heart I learned is a part of life. Learning to block out the pain in order to deal with the feelings and emotions are critical.

You know I’ve been meeting and coming across a lot of folks from my past the past few weeks and months. First thought I had was why are you coming back. But then I realized my own answer. It’s time to let go of the past hurt and pain. It’s time to heal myself from the folks that have wronged me or hurt me, and that I’ve hurt along the way also.

It’s time to find that true peace with those situations and allow myself to remove some of those burdens in order to grow some more and take the next step into my personal growth and well-being. I’m excited now that I’m releasing so much of the past and being able to embrace so much of the future and present.

Heavy hearts kill people, make them depressed and can cause them to do all kinds of things harmful to themselves. I want people to always know that you don’t have to let yourself go just because you’ve had a broken heart for whatever reason. I hope this blog reaches someone who needs to read this and hope it channels your thoughts and emotions. Come out of the dark and walk back into the light