Month: March 2015

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Dick..Body..Ass

The thing that I start to realize as I interact with more people, is that sex is happening at a younger age and development of relationships is eroding away. It seems to across many age groups from the 20’s to the 40’s there is no sense of wanting to establish a bond and make a relationship, rather they rush to try and get to the dick and ass.

If you have a cute face, nice waist, fat dick, and smooth ass, I bet you can get your inboxes on Jack’d, Grindr, A4A, BGC and whatever other social vice you use to be full. People are chomping at the bit to get in the bed and see how much you can make them moan, scream or cream. Ha, notice there was nothing mentioned of trying to build a relationship, learning the person in that statement.

It’s a shame that even when you have a strong personality and dynamic character traits, the first thing that seems to get play is are you cute enough, tall enough, muscular enough, manish enough, and is your dick big enough or your ass fat enough to give or take some dick.

I understand why so many guys choose to abstain from having sex and remove themselves from the social sites, because so many people only care about getting a nut and nothing else. Once the climax is over, you can speak to the person and they will ignore you like you don’t exist. Maybe it’s time to stop dropping draws and making niggas moan and let them get into your mind and personality.

It’s funny how many of us in the life have a reputation for either being great head doctors, or an expert slanging the dick; while others are experts at throwing that ass back or riding the dick from the front or back. Then you have those that have a rep for being experts at it all. they can suck, eat, fuck and get fucked like a pro.

Ha, is that what it’s all come down to? And if you’re one of the ones who don’t want to be defined by that how can you be found? If you’re not on the social sites where can you be found? Maybe we need to really think about inventing a social application where those who want the whole package can meet, greet and make things work.

If you’re wondering what my reputation is I guess you’ll have to ask around. It’s a little of a mixed bag because this asshole of a personality I can have at times has rubbed a few the wrong way, and of course you know I could give two fucks. But on the whole, yes, I fit into one of the categories describe in the above paragraphs. I’ll let you try to figure it out..LOL

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A Heart Without A Home

You know oft used phrase “Home is Where the Heart Is”, is a statement that rings true in so many ways, but it flawed in very demonstrative and tangible way. What happens when the heart is do torn that it doesn’t know where home is or how to find it?

I challenge this statement at it’s core because I’ve seen many people who spend time retreading relationships, hurting new people and running from the prospects of long-term happiness with one individual because their hearts have been so damaged that they don’t know how to heal it or where to start.

I will freely admit that as a consistent Church goer and seeker of inner peace, I still struggle with this dynamic quite a bit. I struggle to understand when it’s time to open up to someone and when to just exhibit that cold, uncaring spirit that just brushes off attempts at interactions with someone new.

I am a social butterfly, filled with life and energy, passion and fire, warmth and love, but at the same time, I am also beginning to understand the darker side of failed love. The abuse of the heart, the torment of the soul, the destruction of individual worth. Maybe it’s because so many in this state would rather find that dick or ass to suck or fuck, rather than find that person whose heart is genuine, intentions are good and build a life together.

Too many people run under the guise of self improvement and that is the justification they use to break off something good; when in reality, they’re scared of being hurt, afraid of losing another good thing and most importantly they don’t want to used, abused and thrown out again. I see the conflict that others wrestle with because I myself grapple with the same internal fight. Do I allow someone else to come in and potentially light up my life or shun them away because I just don’t want another cold, lonely night.

I’ve started on a journey to figure out why am I really under so much strife. I’m finding lost loves and the cleansing is an amazing one. But even as I find them, see them, talk to them and reflect, I’m still torn. The thoughts of what was and what could have been mix with the thoughts of peace and happiness that closure is coming.

Maybe that’s because there are two big pieces missing that I have yet to find. Two huge holes in my heart that I’ve struggled to move beyond and one big piece that seems to never want to commit. My goal is inner peace with these situations and I’m working as only I know how, but I also know that it’s been tormenting me for a while and I finally think I’m ready to put them all to bed.