One of the most imprisoned feelings is when you have a secret and someone else knows. Whether it be something health related, addiction related, or business related, anything that you’re hiding that someone else knows and/or that you fear getting out can certainly do damage to you mentally, emotionally and harm any relationship you have. See I’ve learned that people will do some crazy things and go to amazing lengths to keep some of their darkest secrets private. All the while, they are creating this barrier and this paranoia that can strike at any time.
I don’t think that the world needs to know everything that you’ve done, but I also don’t think that living a fascade is the answer either. See, for some people hiding the truth is worst than telling it, because all the work they have to do to maintain appearances becomes very draining and soon your attitude follows right down the hole too. I will admit that being an open book and letting people in to the more hallowed spaces of your life and journey is not easy, nor should it be taken lightly. You do need to consider who you’re telling the information to because you never want someone else telling your own story when you’re still alive to do it. Because as we all can attest to when someone else gives their version of your truth, it always come out distorted.
From Preachers lying about what they believe in the pulpit, to adults having to fake it and cover up their trails. Wearing the scarlet letter of your imperfection should be how you live. Worrying if someone know’s that you don’t want to know, thinking can people see between the smile that deep down you some dirty shit. All of these things, at one time or another, we have thought about and considered as we’ve plotted our way through life. All of these things at one time or another have kept us all up late at night, thinking and wondering do any of your enemies know your truth.
I am here to tell you that instead of running from the things you’ve done, hiding your past as if it doesn’t exist, not embracing who you are so that if you want to, you can change those undesireable traits, embrace yourself. Attach your issues head on, let it out who you once were or maybe still are, because once you admonish what you use to be or what you don’t want to be the sooner you will be able to work on those things. Bettering yourself and letting go of your past.
#stand tall